Jenmar - Really hot Freddy Krueger.

*Snickers*

Whoever did that I thank you, it's totally awesome and way cute.

Also I got tagged by peterstormarejr to do six random facts about me.

1) I can interlock my toes together like people can do with their fingers.
2) I dropped out of school in sixth grade.
3) I received my GED and high school diploma within about a month of each other.
4) The almost year I have spent in this apartment is the longest I have lived in a single place, with the exception of Job Corps, since I was five.
5) I feel horribly disappointed with myself when I get something less than an "A" in a class.
6) School Ties is one of my favorite movies ever.

Mikhale is mean because he hopped offline seven hours ago so someone could make a phone call and hasn't been back online yet and I'm actually working on my Utah fic but I totally need help and it's unfuckingfair.

Also? Even more pissed about the PBFE right now. She comes back and posts one fic before vanishing again? Fuck that shit. Don't be surprised if my next post happens to be me telling ya'll which one I did and how.

And? Anyone on my FList who has even one idea for school-aged Sam and Dean needs to head here and drop a prompt or forty. You don't have to write anything, anyone can just wander in randomly and drop prompt ideas. I highly encourage you all to go and do it.

Fic Things I Need To Do:
Put in my latest scene in Dean On A Boat (The Prequel to Snakes On A Plane) Octopuses are Inconsiderate.
Plot and start my spn_50states fic.
Finish my spn_50states fic by August first.
Write Amanda Mommy!Dean ficlet.
Write Amanda non!cactus spined!Sammich and Dean ficlet.
Find titles for those three ficlets that I need to post.
Do that one Dean EMF meter fic-thing.
Do that one thing about Papa Winchester and abuse that I keep not doing.

Non-Fic Things I Need To Do:
Make that one "Jenny without The Gay" icon.
Make TheLana her "The Cancer of Prison Break" icon.
Find a way to make YSI upload Halfshell's headers so she can actually GET them. My net hates me.
Upload pictures of Daddy and co.

Hey you know what? While I'm in a ranty mood?

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THE PBFE?

It was supposed to be done a while ago and this is bull. According to the last post at pbficexchange there were still fics waiting to be posted and there has been no word of anything since.

This was on June 20th, almost a month ago. She also hasn't updated her personal journal in thirteen weeks so that'll probably be no help at all with contacting her.

I'm really not trying to come off as a bitch because for all I know (God forbid) something happened to almostforgiven. But if it didn't? If she's fine and everyone is fine and she just got tired of LJ or PB or the PBFE or something? Then I am pissed.

You know what I want? For everyone to step up to the comm and tell what they wrote. And those people who haven't had their stories put up yet? Maybe post them on your own? I honestly feel that if we don't finish this ourselves it just ain't gonna get done.

Seriously man, what's the consensus here? Do we want to try and finish this on our own or does nobody care anymore?

Feel free to direct anyone and everyone even a little interested to this post.

I got recced again! I got recced again! Woo! Check me out!

I finished my PBFE and that makes me happy. Now? My OCD shall be used to make shinies.

Must Do List:
Post the Gen Porn icons I made last night after getting carried away.
Find Cheesey and give her her OT5 icons.
Possibly post that SPN Snippet I bribed Julia with the other night...
Work more on the SPN demi!drabbles.
Work more on Five Powers Dean Doesn't Have.
Look through my PB WIP list and try to kick the shit out of the fucking writer's block.

Must Make List:
Make halfshellvenus' fic banners again (Totally had one done and another kinda started but I hate them both so I'm gonna start from scratch again now).
Spiffy up sister's LJ and upload her some nice and shiny icons.
Make the sister some Episode One Obi!Love icons.
Make Julia and Elissa groovy headers and help them shine up their layouts.
Make self a new header maybe? Possibly a rotating one. Maybe.

So. What I need to get these groovys done?

halfshellvenus: I still have your original request, do you remember it after all this time? If not I can show it to you. Also I need to know if you want anything different and if you have any specific pictures you want? Still the same blue color scheme? Something different?

Julia: I need to know what size you want the header, what color scheme you want, what text you want (if any) and what font/size preference you may have for the text. If you have specific pictures you want I need them; best thing to do would be to zip/rar them and upload to yousendit and then send it to me, if we try to do the pictures one by one it's going to take a LONG time. Also you need to make sure you're here for OT5 tonight so we can speak one-on-one about this and I don't forget anything.

Elissa: I need to know what size you want the header, what color scheme you want, what text you want (if any) and what font/size preference you may have for the text. If you have specific pictures you want I need them; best thing to do would be to zip/rar them and upload to yousendit and then send it to me, if we try to do the pictures one by one it's going to take a LONG time. Also you need to make sure you're here for OT5 tonight so we can speak one-on-one about this and I don't forget anything.

*Groans* It is the seventh. PBFE is due in the ninth. You want to know what I have so far?

Nothing. I have two generalized paragraphs that could be outlines for the fic maybe and no ideas at all. Seriously, I have not even the slightest clue how to start, where to start, or what to do.

You want to hear how very badly my brain is avoiding this fucking thing? I opened up a word file to type up a list of my SPN Bunnies and accidentally wrote nine paragraphs, each one a small fic. Three of them are Wincest and one of them has Sam thinking about how he loves how Dean's hip spasms under his hand at night.

WTF?

0330 and my brain was avoiding PBFE so badly it went to porn. I have never written porn of any kind before.

And? Last night I read het rather than work on it

I think this proves that I'm completely fucked on the PBFE front. I've got a chara I don't feel confident writing and a... thing I don't know how to do. I'm incredibly tempted to ask almostforgiven if I can draw a picture and scan it in instead. Seriously, I'll start drawing again if I don't have to try and write this fucking thing.

How much do I procrastinate? I just spent an hour or so uploading a new mood theme. It's SPN. I don't see it being up for long though, I see myself spending a week or so actually making one sometime in the near future.

Also? I want a new header. And I want to make icons.

Who wants to guess the "progress" of my PBFE?

I totally haven't opened Photoshop at all though, even with all the new shinys I got for it.
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I hate being a chick. I've gone through three pairs of shorts in eight hours. And I want steak, medium rare. Ma overcooked last night. Boo.
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Ferry, Amanda, Julia, Elissa and I cracked out for 72 pages in word last night. Well, we cracked out a lot before it to but the MSN!RPG!Orgy (With Emo Dean, Sexy Dean, Sammich, Sammy, Papa John, Tweener, Wentworth, Jensen, Dominic, STRUMMER and several others) was 72 pages long.

SO MUCH FUN.
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Also? Julia, Elissa, Ferry, and Halfshell all suck because they're done with their PBFEs.
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I think I'm gonna add some more on to my "Facts About Clex" thing. Maybe.

Apparently there was a scene in the Supernatural pilot that never got filmed that explained a common question. The "answer" is so simple that it's really Superman Theory at work. I can't think of a single person who thought of this in their never ending quest to answer this question. I still like my answer better though, mainly because I thought of it.
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Cheesehead, I'm sorry, I totally crashed out last night while talking. Again.
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Someone totally just had Dean call Sammich "Sammich" in an apocalyptothon fic. I cannot properly describe the insanely giddy cackle/giggle I did for around a full minute.
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Looking through spnstoryfinders, like I sometimes do, and just came across this phrase in a fic description:

[...] then proceeds to f**k him like a champion [...]
[Source]

And of course being the Whedonite that I am I totally suddenly had this image of Lindsey under Angel just taunting the fuck out of him ("Come on, aren't you supposed to be a Champion? Fifteen year old girls fuck harder than you!").

I blame this entirely on Chris Kane.
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I may try and start my PBFE today.

But I'll probably beg to be allowed to take my brother to see X3 first. I seriously hope I'm allowed and he wants to go, I don't do movies alone.

Never mind. Scrap that.
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*Throttles PBFE prompt* Why, why, why was I not more specific? *Headdesk*
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Got fake nails with Ma yesterday. This is what happens when you're bored and sitting next to your Mom while she gets her nails done.

Typing is a tad bit weird now.

Spent the day grocery shopping with Mommy and Yussie. Mm. Food. It's sad how cool today was.

I may be like, the only one of three Fanatic on my FList who hasn't seen X3 yet.

Have still been freaking out a little, but not a lot.

PBFE fic still not started yet. I have a little more than a week left. I think I can do this. Maybe.

Talked to Phil and two of his roommates tonight, much cool.

Watched the last three eps of Supernatural with Phil last night, he totally spazzed at the end of Devil Trap. I'm glad I pulled him into it.

Like, nobody is ever online anymore it seems. Totally unfair.

I kinda wanna do one of those "All About Clex" things like everyone has about themselves but... I don't know. I don't really talk about myself a lot on here cause I just don't. I think part of my hesitation to do an All About Me post is that A) Once I get started I tend to ramble, and B) My life really does sound kinda fake.

I mean it: I've lived in shelters and motels and hotels and trailers and apartments and cars and on the street and all kinds of other places most people haven't. My educational background is really something to marvel at, but not in a good way. I can go into detail about identity theft and other scams the like of which would make Dean Winchester's mouth water with the amount of money they bring in. I can criticize Prison Break, Fastlane, and nearly any other show involving law enforcement, prison, jail, inmates and other things like that from several different points.

Eh. Maybe I'll just do a Random Facts post about me. Anyone have any burning questions? Anything you want to know? I promise I wont be offended or freaked out. I always allow Anonymous Posting so you an do that if you really want. I'd turn off IP Logging for the post but I don't know how and I don't really look at them anyway.

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PBFE
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Okay so the first step is admitting you have a problem, right?

I have a big, huge, gigantic problem with my PBFE. I know what the problem is and I can't say it and I kinda have this vague outline of what I want to do.

It's just a matter of doing it.
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Supernatural - Five Powers Dean Doesn't Have
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Yeah, it's chopped in half now.

I've barely touched this fic in a week and I know why. About a week ago I found out I was recced somewhere and along with the rec was a piece of concrit. Now concrit doesn't bother me, I love it because it helps me become a better author, but this one was vague and I'm an oversensitive idiot who suddenly hates the fic she's been working on for... two weeks(?) so badly that I can't really bring myself to type anything. I keep wondering about the spelling and grammar and the style of it. Mostly the style because anyone who has read more than one of my fics knows I have my own style. And I just... Ugh.

I currently have one part up in Word that has been up for a few days and I haven't been able to bring myself to type anything.

I really need to get this done though. I've got jillybinks helping me with plotting and jewels667 helping me with a beta but... The more I get to look at it the better. And I don't think I've actually added anything much since the last time I sent this to Julia.

Someone wanna volunteer to help me? Feel free to tear it to shreds, I don't mind as long as you tell me why. And yes, "this just sounds weird" counts as a why.

Got season 3 of Scrubs on Monday from Grandma cause I got all A's.

Have totally been feeling the Chicago Pride lately.

So hungry.

So bored.

Need to finish the last part of the 0103 Bible Entry for spn_heavymeta.

Need to finish Five Powers Dean Doesn't Have.

Need to start my PBFE.

Need to fucking eat something! Nothing to eat of course because my idiot mother wants to wait until it's closer to CJ getting out to go shopping. He gets out on Tuesday and right now we have french fries and tortillas. I love my mother but this whole "I have no food" thing is starting to make me an even crankier bitch.

It's funny, I coulda swore the PBFE was for July, I swore I remember thinking "Hey, it's due on Andy's birthday!"

Oops.

Heh. At 19 Jared Padalecki looked like he was like, 14. And Jensen at 23? Looked maybe around 18 or so.

I'm so totally thinking the Winchesters were the opposite of my family looks-wise. Every last one of us always look/looked older than we were/are. I'm thinking Sammich and Dean have always looked younger. I think Dean got carded up until he was about 24 or 25. He's had a fake ID since he was about 15 though so it's never been a problem aside from embarrassment.

Both of my brother's have passed for early to mid-twenties since they were fourteen. I turned 12 and was 5'11, then I turned 14 and was a 36C, no one ever believed me when I told them my age. But still people think I'm fucking with them when I say Joseph is the little brother.

Oy fucking vey.

I lost Arizona to a thirteen-year-old here. Ugh. And I missed Illinois by two comments. I called dibs on Utah because it's so boring that Dean will have to tease Sam the whole way through the state just for something to do.
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Oh shit. Now... I want to do a story. "Ten Powers Dean Winchester Doesn't Have" maybe. Or "Ten Ways Dean's Powers Didn't Manifest" possibly. Maybe both. Because the first one is powers he doesn't have so it's be 10 Dean's using powers whereas the latter is manifestation so I could do an early Smallville/X-Men type deal with powers coming out randomly.

Shite.

I also have a sleep-ficlet in my head right now but... Prison Break fandom is big on the platonic/semi-platonic bed sharing, I don't know about Supernatural fandom. I have an incredibly clear image of this one in my head too.

I feel the unreasonable need to do some list-fics now. I blame this on my OCD having nowhere to focus right now.
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I think I may be able to outline my PBFE soon; which is very good because... It's good.
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I kinda wanna make icons again soon. I just don't really know what. PB and SPN obviously, but...

Yeah. Meh. I need to make a Bondage!Sammy icon for miss_mandybecause she has a ton of new open spaces and she wants bondage Sammy.

I also need to make myself an icon of Dean sleeping from Phantom Traveler.
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I got a little bunny from this. [Spoilers for Supernatural - Devil's Trap] The part with the little annoyances?

[...] which would be a cool subplot where they get cursed with low-level annoyances (like running out of gas and getting caught for speeding and always getting the wrong food when they ordered and so on) because they got cursed by a witch or something [...]

I kinda wanna do something like that now, a Murphy's Law kind of thing. Maybe I can tie it in with Utah...
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Devil's Trap has just finished, I'm now DLing all the caps I didn't already have.
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My tummy hurts and all that's at home is hot dogs. I'm tempted to ask Mom when I get home if I can go buy something to eat but she'll say yes even though we can't afford it.

Speaking of? Joseph still won't go look for a job and Mom still gets all bitchy at me when I tell her she should make him get one.

I'm totally not going to tell her I'm surfing cragslist for myself. If I can find something with customer service near me that'd be awesome and would help me muchly.

I have a feeling I'm gonna be doing a week or two or three at Burger King. Fucking Joseph.

1506 right now, I'm gonna post this and run to the Bear's Den real quick to buy a Scantron for my test.