Jenmar - Really hot Freddy Krueger.

JOHN IS HERE! HE HAS ARRIVED!

He's charging right now! And? I totally cut out part of the package. Julia quoted Dean on it ("Dad's on a hunting trip, and he hasn't been home in a while") and it's now sitting in front of my TV and behind my notebooks.

Classes started today. Communication 100 and Juvie Justice. Today was pretty much just the syllabi but the classes don't seem too bad.

In Comm we talked a little about movies we'd seen and TV shows we watch and I defended Snakes On A Plane to some chick I can already tell I don't like.

She actually asked about the plot. Even after I said that the plot doesn't matter.

Then Jason, the teacher (Last name of the uneasy pronounciation), asked what TV shows we watched. I said Prison Break and Supernatural and then instantly felt ashamed because no one had any clue what either were.

Why can't there be any Supernatural fans in Arizona? Phil and Andy don't count.

Two hours until Prison Break.

I am so tired. For serious, yo.

...Ugh. I'm gonna have to switch out my PB icons soon aren't I? Fucking escapees. Fuck.

Sleep sched is all fucked up again.

Gonna try to sleep here soon because I should.

Going to go see Clerks II with Yussie and Daddy tomorrow.

Cheesey's brother's are named Sam and Jess. Seriously. I want to make nine kinds of incest and sex change jokes now.

I hate being a chick right now. I apologize in advance if I bitch out or get bitchy/testy/annoyed/annoying with anyone for the next week.

I miss OT5.

My head kinda hurts and I'm a little light-headed.

I want bloody steak and chocolate.

I would like it muchly if my chest would stop hurting soon. And no worries people, it's the kind of chest-hurty that always happens about now, nothing dangerous but annoying and buggy as all fuck.

I totally just spent like what felt like a half an hour trying to find some kind of biblical quote on incest for something that may or may-not happen in a fic I may or may-not write. Sadly I suck and therefor gave up before I could find anything.

Crap. I just realized I totally forgot to give Julia my address to send either Mary or Dean to me. JULIA! MY ADDRESS IS BEING SENT TO YOUR YAHOO ACCOUNT. DUN FORGET TO CHECK IT MMKAY?

Things I Need To Do:
Put in my latest scene in Dean On A Boat (The Prequel to Snakes On A Plane) Octopuses are Inconsiderate.
Plot and start my spn_50states fic.
Write Amanda Mommy!Dean ficlet.
Write Amanda non!cactus spined!Sammich and Dean ficlet.
Finish my spn_50states fic by August first.
Find titles for those three ficlets that I need to post.
Get to library and download the John the Revelator vid from sacrilicious sometime before link expires on Friday.
Figure out other things to download while there so I don't waste an entire CD on 17MB.
Make that one "Jenny without The Gay" icon.
Make some other icon I can't remember right now.

MOG. I is such a bad person and totally late too!

I LOVE YOU ELISSA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'M SORRY I'M LAAAAME AND LATE AND I SUCK.

And now you get some kind of prezzie. I have only a tiny clue as to what you want so when you're back from camping and reading this you should poke me on MSN so I can think of something for you.

Also? You and Julia still want the headers/banners for your journals, right? I kinda need pictures for them. :P

Okay. I'm totally gonna kick Joseph in his fucking face. He deleted AIM from my laptop. It's 8MB. That will take over an hour to install if I can manage to keep my connection on long enough. So yeah, until I can figure out how to fucking Jimmy-Rig it I am AIMless. This means I can be poked via LJ or MSN. I have YIM but I haven't been able to see anything I or anyone else types on it since a long time now so it's really a whole lot useless, mainly there so I know when I have an email.

My brother is a fucking idiot sometimes. Fuck.

Got a Boondock Saints shirt at the mall Friday, that was cool. Got home and realized it was long-sleeved. That was not. I'm totally gonna need to go back and get one that is short-sleeved. Of course I'm gonna need money for that so it's gonna be a while. What? You thought I would return it or something?

Got the sides of my head shaved Friday, I feel better now.

Been in half-panic attack mode for the last few days. Part of this is because I'm PMSing and part of it is unknown. I would really love not to freak out when I PMS. And keep in mind that when I say this what I mean is that I would like to go an entire month without scratching my arms until they bleed and scab and then picking the scabs until they leave holes and scar. I clawed four holes in my shoulders the other night and it makes me look vaguely like a Meth addict.

I seriously need some happy fic. Why is there so little happy fic? Oh right. Because it's Prison Break and Supernatural. Stupid angsty fandoms...

Usually when I talk to people I get the feeling that I am Sammich. Mainly because I think I kinda am. Except when talking to Cheesey; then I'm suddenly Dean. This is because Cheesey is totally Sammich. Proof under the cut.

( Proof that I be Dean and Cheesey be Sammich. Heh. Cheese Sammich. )

See? It's totally a convo between Sammich and Dean from two different comps at the library. Even Sammich knows he's a big girl. I find it amusing that Dean capitalizes and uses punctuation much more than College Boy. Seriously, me and Cheesey talking is like SamandDean fic. But without all the incesty anal sex. Or any anal sex usually. Except when we have those RPG Costume Parties... Except STRUMER kinda unleashed those ostriches last time and crashed it all.

I have the new issue of TV Guide now. The one with Jenny and Went and Angel and Jin and Chase and stuff. Mm.

It's 1251 here ATM and I'm still awake. Tomorrow night I'm gonna take my sleeping pills again. Well, tonight I guess. Technically.

It's been like, weeks since I've written anything that wasn't prompted of MSN or a comment. I need to work more on the Five Powers fic (I'm sure if I can motivate myself right I can pound it out quick) and then try and flesh out this other fic I've had bouncing around in my head for a while. It's Stanford-time SPN. I was telling Elissa about it last night and she thought it was groovy. Sammich's friends totally convince him to go on a roadtrip with them during the first or second summer. Poor Sammich gets driven out of one town by a sheriff, leered at by a few dozen waitresses, smacked by another, turned away at some hotels and run into angsty/angry/pissed off Dean (Who his friends may or may not mistake for an ex) in a dinner somewhere. Elissa suggested "Five places Sam has never been... Really, never." My OCD is highly prevalent in fics I've noticed. Numbers play a large part in most of my fics.

I also have to finish up the remaining eps on The Laundry List. I've been putting them off because my comp has been particularly prone to freezing the past few days and all the play-pause-play is likely to not help with that. Also? hrada and veradeath? I need to know what your estimated completion dates for your episodes are. The sooner this is all done the better. If you want to drop any episodes don't feel bad, just let me know so I can get a start on them myself, groovy?

It's Father's Day and Mom had me go out and get CJ a card. CJ's cool and all but blood or not I don't consider myself his daughter. I want my Daddy. I have to at least call him sometime today/tonight. I have his number and I know the halfway house he's at cause it's the one Jimmy Lee was at and Mom was at and it's the one right behind Uncle Steve's where me and Joe used to live. Maybe when Joe wakes up I'll see if he wants to go over there. I'd totally have to think of an excuse for where we go because Ma wouldn't like it and she'd tell CJ and he'd feel like even more shit than he does today. I dunno, I have to call Dad to see if he's there today. I think he is. I hope he is. Maybe if he's there and says we can come over me and Yuss might be able to work something out, go pick up Andy down from Mesa and go see Daddy and then come home. Andy would like to see Dad and it would give us time to be gone.

Ignore the previous paragraph; I realize a lot of it doesn't make sense, I'm mostly thinking out loud. Kinda. In a way. I miss my Daddy.

*Uses Papa Winchester icon*

Cheesey wins. This is why the OT5 rocks my socks.

I got recced again! I got recced again! Woo! Check me out!

I finished my PBFE and that makes me happy. Now? My OCD shall be used to make shinies.

Must Do List:
Post the Gen Porn icons I made last night after getting carried away.
Find Cheesey and give her her OT5 icons.
Possibly post that SPN Snippet I bribed Julia with the other night...
Work more on the SPN demi!drabbles.
Work more on Five Powers Dean Doesn't Have.
Look through my PB WIP list and try to kick the shit out of the fucking writer's block.

Must Make List:
Make halfshellvenus' fic banners again (Totally had one done and another kinda started but I hate them both so I'm gonna start from scratch again now).
Spiffy up sister's LJ and upload her some nice and shiny icons.
Make the sister some Episode One Obi!Love icons.
Make Julia and Elissa groovy headers and help them shine up their layouts.
Make self a new header maybe? Possibly a rotating one. Maybe.

So. What I need to get these groovys done?

halfshellvenus: I still have your original request, do you remember it after all this time? If not I can show it to you. Also I need to know if you want anything different and if you have any specific pictures you want? Still the same blue color scheme? Something different?

Julia: I need to know what size you want the header, what color scheme you want, what text you want (if any) and what font/size preference you may have for the text. If you have specific pictures you want I need them; best thing to do would be to zip/rar them and upload to yousendit and then send it to me, if we try to do the pictures one by one it's going to take a LONG time. Also you need to make sure you're here for OT5 tonight so we can speak one-on-one about this and I don't forget anything.

Elissa: I need to know what size you want the header, what color scheme you want, what text you want (if any) and what font/size preference you may have for the text. If you have specific pictures you want I need them; best thing to do would be to zip/rar them and upload to yousendit and then send it to me, if we try to do the pictures one by one it's going to take a LONG time. Also you need to make sure you're here for OT5 tonight so we can speak one-on-one about this and I don't forget anything.

At Grandma's now.

She has cable internet.

She also has a 800x600 display I'm not allowed to change. I feel like I'm about to go fucking blind from this shit.

I just DLd the latest MSN to her conmp so I might be around for OT5 tonight after all.

Sadly? My brother took my laptop last night before I could save the OT5 icons I was working on. :(

Okay, so. Where're all those loverly Jensen and Jared and other misc interviews I've been hearing so much about? Julia, I'm looking at you...

Oh yeah, my little cousin Elyse is here too. She's about... five? I think. Anyway she recognizes letters and I haver this bad feeling that sometime in chat tonight someone's going to type PORN just buig enough and at just the right time for her to ask Grandma what that spells.

OT5 ♥♥♥♥♥