Jenmar - Really hot Freddy Krueger.

spn_j2_bigbang has finished posting! I did not post this year (my second miss EVER), because RL.

There were 133 fics posted, which is batshit, and the wordcounts are as follows:

2,783,576 J2 words
249,600 Other RPF words
1,289,414 Sam/Dean words
943,476 Other SPN words

For a glorious and insane total of 5,266,066 words written and posted for this year.

We are some wordy fuckers.

It's fun, right?

I'm pretty much bipolar. It isn't diagnosed because the job I work at that I hate doesn't give me insurance. I was gonna go to Ma's GP on Tuesday to see about getting on some kind of medication, but didn't go because a combination of not having the money and CJ wanting to talk to me about it first. Which I get, because Ma sometimes gets an idea in her head and gets her Stubborn on, and I know he just wants to make sure that I'm not agreeing to go if I'm good but just hating my job.

And, let me tell you, the amount of hate I have for this job is eclipsed only by the amount of hate I have for the asshole who is my temporary boss. Mine doesn't come back until the beginning of July, and I really don't know if I hope I'm still there then or not.

( Ranting about work be under this cut. )

I added a ridiculous amount of words to my Big Bang on May 1st (almost a full 13k) and then have hardly touched it since. I feel so bad for poor colls, because she has 7k of coherent fic and then nothing. I try, but this entire month has been about 90% downswing and the other 10% so busy I cannot do a thing. And when I'm on a downswing I either just am too numb to care and don't even bother to try to open it, or everything is SO fucking horrible and stupid that I just want to delete it all and start from scratch. Which would be a very bad idea.

In addition to all that, one... Saturday? Friday? My old desktop broke, I moved to one we bought off a guy that was password protected in the core like work computers tend to be, so I couldn't install my work system on it. Then I moved to Ma's new desktop, which would not allow me to the login page for work, and then to Yussie's which is now mine. And then two days later my old work computer completely broke. About an hour after my laptop gave out.

Now, when I say my laptop gave out, what I really mean is it did that thing it would do occasionally where it spends about two hours trying to fix an issue it finds, and says in big, BOLD letters across the screen ATTEMPTING TO REPAIR DISC. DO NOT POWER OFF OR UNPLUG.

So, naturally, Ma turned it off. And it ruined the harddrive to the point where Yussie tried to reinstall Windows on it and it told him to go fuck himself. Now, on the plus side, I had known my desktop was giving out, so I backed it up on my server constantly. I have all my comics, fonts, PS presets, pictures, music, etc. The TV and movies I downloaded are gone, but I have 3.80TCreds on TVT and a ratio of 4.73 on IPT with 3,559 bonus points, so I'm not exactly worried about getting those back, besides just plain remembering what I want.

But my awesome husband unperfectwolf has been working on her Squee! submission for the last two hours and unwittingly helping me feel better by talking about finding fandom when she was in single digits and wincon. I genuinely am feeling a little better now, so I'm going to end this novel of a post before that turns again.

I might be super slow to respond to comments, because procrastination is awesome when I downswing.

I was lucky enough to get grabbed by the amazing colls even though I have the most generic summary on the planet that I, once again, came up with right before hitting send.

A (Pinch of) Salt And Batter-y

Dean's been running the family business for all of ten minutes and he's already fucked it up so bad that Sam had to practically drop out of school to come save him. And if that's not enough, the pretentious douchebag who manages the health food store across the street won't stop hitting on Sam, and Dean is this close to physically lighting their new rival shop's owner on fire.

Or, "Sam and Dean run a bakery instead of hunting demons, Crowley opens the new cupcake shop down the street, and if Lucifer (who used to be a boring dude named Nick when he went to school with Dean) tries to hit on Sam one more time Dean is going to get arrested for murder."

THAT'S RIGHT. I WROTE A BAKERY AU FOR BIG BANG, AND THEN SOMEHOW DID NOT MENTION IN THE SUMMARY THAT I WROTE A BAKERY AU. Thankfully, I think I made colls pee herself with joy, so yay!

We post August 15th (101 days from now), because it's like wendy knows me or something.

In non-fannish news, I walked through for almost five hours today, spent 16 hours somewhat coherent and awake yesterday, am dyeing my hair, Ma's hair, and my aunt who is visiting for a month's hair tomorrow.

Also, I literally facemashed through about 13k of my Big Bang on the first, like usual, and now have to detangle it and make it coherent for my artist because, no, really, at one point I managed ten words to say that Dean was yelling.

P.S. You guys. I loooooooooooooooooove Show. I really do. Pac-Man Fever made me all fluttery all over!

Tumblr still won't let me reblog and I hate it there so I'm mostly okay with that.

I have been working Tech Support for exactly a year as of an hour 39 15 minutes from now, and I still hate it so much that I cry on a pretty much daily basis. Fun times.

I am two episodes behind Hannibal (which I am in LOVE with), STILL eight episodes behind Dexter, four behind The Voice, four behind Doctor Who, at least five behind Scandal, three behind on Glee (I hope I can quit this! I hate Glee so much and can't stop watching), one behind on Psych, and I don't even know how far behind I am on Happy Endings.

I wrote no fic in March because of a death in the family, and none in April probably in part from trying to mentally/emotionally recover from March and April (because no seriously April, WTF). I'm going to try three this month to make up for it. Feel free to laugh. (But, also, feel free to leave ideas for wee little ficlets. I have an entire window devoted to comment meme prompts I might attempt to attempt.)

OH. And I might be getting an iPhone 4? IDK if I want one, but our phones are due for upgrade, and Yussie's refuses to charge anymore, which has resulted in a lively game of "Switch me batteries" when he goes to work, comes home, and then is home for a few hours. And the iPhone 4 is a free upgrade at Verizon ($30 upgrade fee, what the actual fuck) so either he's gonna upgrade, or I will and then I'll give him my current phone (we all have HTC Thunderbolts right now).

I was going to say something else here. OH, RIGHT. Yussie broke his hand. Luckily, it happened at work, so his boss is paying for everything, and he's on light-duty so he doesn't have to miss time. He got it pinned between between a fitting and the truck while loading it at work, and then his boss said "Nah, just looks dislocated. Let me pop it in for you."

And now he's in a cast to hopefully avoid surgery and them having to screw things through his hand.

It's 11pm and I am SO. FUCKING. EXHAUSTED. I'm going to go grab my laptop to charge my phone and sleep. But not before spending five minutes making a new icon that fits this.

JFC, I did not know I had this much to say.

I know, I know. No one probably cares, and this is likely less thank shocking to anyone, but here's mine:

True, We've Demolished a Thing or Two (Sam/Dean/Jess)

Sam/Dean/Jess and the variations therein. R to NC-17, depending on edits.
4. Your story summary for artists: The idea is simple: Save People. Hunt Things. Sam never imagined it would be so hard to find something to hunt, but the area around Stanford seems to be a dead zone. Dean never thought it would be so hard to save people, but they all keep saving themselves. Jess never dreamed she'd find the perfect guy who would understand her job as a Hunter, but here she is bonding with two of them.

Now if they can just keep from killing each other, it might just be true love.

ordinaryink saved me in round two from having to draw wee, crappy little stick figures for my art.

It's my biiiiiiiiiiirthday!

I'm possibly celebrating it by going to see Bully, but that depends on if Ma's Celiac's is still drop-kicking her.

Also, I have lost 24.2 pounds since the middle of February, when I started trying!

And I have a job! I start training May 7th, I'm going to be customer service/tech support for DirecTV, and I get to work from home!

And I've passed 13k on my Big Bang! And signed up for wincestielbang because I'm crazy.

Tell the truth.

[Poll #1726071]

...I suck at journaling, man. I'll blame Twitter, even though I kinda suck at that, too. So, non-bullet bulleties.

- spn_j2_bigbang! I signed up! Sadly, my first idea for it is something that I recently realized will get maybe three people will read it, because fandom as a whole seems to loathe the theme. I know you shouldn't write specifically for comments, but there is something distressing about spending months and months writing 20k+ and getting only four comments on it. Also, I am tired of being one of the last picks for art. It's stressful.

- Since my last real update B has put in his plea, officially been sentenced and moved back to Florence. This is good, because Florence is a one hour drive where Tucson was three, and it's a two hour visit through glass where Tucson was a half an hour over camera. Also, last night Kristin (his other sister) stopped by to pick up some of his stuff because when they moved him from county in Tucson back to Florence he couldn't bring anything but his court paperwork with him. It was cool, me, her, and Ma got to talk for about two hours before she had to go. We're gonna get together on Sunday before she drives back up to Pinon.

- Google is awesome, but their beta phases are apparently crap with people. Seriously, I have a brand new respect for all the buggy shit in GMail when it first started and everything. They're trying Lead Qualifiers--people who will answer the calls when they come in and get their name, number, website, what their budget is, and then direct them to the right people on the right team. In one minute. They literally have a handle time of sixty seconds, which means if they take longer than that to do anything, they're breaking their version of a quota. The past two weeks have been pretty crap because of this and all the systems that haave been breaking because of it.

- I am still in love with Southland, and it is back and everything about it is made of love.

- In related and more shameful news, I have been randomly watching S10 of Smallville here and there and kinda falling back in love with it. I CAN'T HELP IT. LOIS AND CLARK! THAT IS MY LOIS AND CLARK FROM COMICS! Except for where SV has torn apart the canon and made their own, but when I think of it as an Elseworlds it hurts me less. Also, holy shit, Ollie, you are weridly in love with Clark, man. I am not used to it, but until you get a Hal of your very own (or a Dinah that doesn't make my eyes twitch as hard) I guess I do not mind. I ALMOST FORGOT. Daniel Jackson, you may be doomed to be an archaeologist forever but you were perfect as Hawkman, and I cheered like hell when you tossed Green Arrow through the window, and when you tossed him on the table, and generally when you existed and were onscreen.

- More related news, Batman/Superman: Public Enemies, the movie, is amazing. I quoted nearly the whole thing in Chat last week when I watched it, because Superman and Batman and their relationship was so damn perfect.

- Young Justice, on the other hand, makes me sad all over and I almost want to make an entire post just about all the ways it sucks. Also, I spent the first fifteen minutes or so going, "Koooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon" over and over until he showed.

- Speaking of Smallville, I have been rereading SV fic based in/written during seasons 1 and 2, and it has been weirdly nostalgic and awesome. On the off chance that there is anyone here still in that fandom, or who still has bookmarks from that fandom, I would not turn them down.

- This got really long. I will go now, because I need to write this weekend before cherie_morte kills me.