Jenmar - Really hot Freddy Krueger.

The dead man in this story is one of CJ's good friends from prison, and the guy's girlfriend is now in critical condition.

The guy spent years in prison, got out about a year ago, and has been doing everything right ever since. He was the kind of guy who would've let the people who killed him just stay there to hide out from the cops. There was no reason to shoot either of them.

I personally only know them from stories, but Ma and CJ knew these people, and were pretty good friends with them.

I'm honestly kind of worried about what could possibly happen next.

CJ got pulled over in my car on the way to the car rental place because he turned into the second lane instead of the nearest one.

Thankfully, the cop decided CJ had had a rough enough day and let him go with a verbal warning.

CJ's okay, BTW. Just a small bump and a headache. Apparently he was trying to turn left out of the suicide lane when someone else was trying to go straight and the chick t-boned him at 50 miles an hour.

CJ got pulled over in my car on the way to the car rental place because he turned into the second lane instead of the nearest one.

Thankfully, the cop decided CJ had had a rough enough day and let him go with a verbal warning.

CJ's okay, BTW. Just a small bump and a headache. Apparently he was trying to turn left out of the suicide lane when someone else was trying to go straight and the chick t-boned him at 50 miles an hour.

Rundown in bullet form. Here's how today went, in order:

• Woke up today after about three hours of sleep.


• Found out phone was turned off.


• Got another ounce of fluid pulled from my knee.


• Found out I never grew out of my arthritis (which happens about half the time with JRA.


• Got disconnects for the cable; internet; Ma's phone; and Yussie's phone.


• Realized their is not enough money to turn my phone back on yet, but also not enough to pay the contract break fee and get a prepaid.


• Discovered that, with the way my checks are now, after my car payment, car insurance, gas, food at work, phone, and doctor's copays, I only bring in $440 a month on average.


• Got a call from B at the prison today, and realized we don't have enough money on the account for the fucking thing to let the call go through.


• CJ got into a car accident on the way home because he went to check his work P.O. box to see if I had mail I was expecting there (where they sent him back to the post office itself because his work and their mail is being stupid to the extreme and the mail place they used to use and the one they're using now are fighting or something).

Ma's car is apparently wrecked. CJ called from the accident and Ma said he doesn't sound good; she's on the way to get him now, in my car. Not sure exactly how the accident happened yet—he says it's his fault but we don't know if it's his fault because he blames himself for pretty much everything bad that happens or because he tried to make a turn in one of the suicide lanes*.

The only good thing about this is that Ma has insurance. Ma said that CJ said that the car was completely wrecked, so it might not be a matter of repairing it so much as replacing it, but we think the insurance covers a rental car in the meantime.

This is just... When it rains it really fucking pours, doesn't it?

*A suicide lane is a lane that is no-through with turning in both directions part of the time, one-way through part of the time with no turning, and one-way through the other way with no turning another part of the time.

So. Instead of working on my Big Bang like I really need to be (it is the fic that will not DIE) I accidentally started writing a Swan Song coda in a somewhat experimental style that will either be really neat or completely fucking lame.

Also, I have an 11 hour shift today and Ma forgot and woke me up a half of an hour EARLY.

I've already downed an entire venti Java Chip and not my stomach aches so I can't stomach down the second corn dog that is my breakfast.

Also, I will literally have to give over ever cent that doesn't have to stay in my account for my payday loan tomorrow (a hundred and forty fucking dollars, Obama, I am not impressed, it was only $70 every two weeks when I didn't have to go online). I have paid more in interest than I even fucking borrowed, and I will never see any of that money back because Ma and CJ are just stubborn and annoying.

Me and Yussie now routinely bond over how they keep telling us that if we don't like it there we can leave, they don't need our help, and how they are clearly so very wrong about that because they need every last penny we have from our checks every week and still can't pay all the bills off.

...That turned ranty. I swear, it was just gonna be a little bitching about Coda instead of Big Bang.

Why isn't "helpless" a mood on LJ?

Watch me suddenly change my spn_j2_xmas fic.

John Tucker Must Die is SUCH a bad film. But Sophia is in it, and she calls Jenny McCarthy hot and kisses whoever it is that the main chick is.

I HAVE A NEW LAYOUT! IT IS PINK AND HAS SPARKLEY LINKS LIKE j2_everafter! Okay, yes, so there's a lot of pink and it's kinda tacky and Pepto Bismaly but JARED APPROVES OF IT AND I DON'T CARE. Also, it has little SamandDeans for people and Metallicars for comms and Bobby for News and Meg for feeds and those were all done by bittersweet_art here.

ZMOG I JUST FIGURED OUT WHAT MY spn_j2_xmas IS! HMOG IT WILL BE AMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZING!

I found out at work that I don't get paid until Friday. The day AFTER Christmas. Not that it matters, though, because CJ's trans blew out on the truck so I'm gonna help with that and get Ma her second pair of glasses (I told her to get the comfy plastic ones and not the ones with the nosepieces) so aside from my $150 for food at work till the ninth. Which I don't mind, cause I volunteered it. But I'm kinda annoyed because I did EIGHTEEN HOURS OF OT and the almost three hundred dollars from that is, like. SO not mine.

Sigh. Anyway. Yes. Off I go again to plot J2, my X-Mas fic, and finish this MPreg CLex fic. CLex as in Clark/Lex. Not me.

In the order I was told about these:

1) CJ just pre-ordered me TDK;
2) For Thanksgiving (day of) we're gonna go down to a soup kitchen and serve food, and;
3) For Christmas instead of buying each other stuff we're gonna adopt a family. The full works, get them food, clothes, get the kids toys, everything. And we're also gonna do the Christmas Angel thing this year, too.

First off? Go read This Is The Sun Gone Down right now. It's an awesome fic featuring Sam with DID.

Now for the second part of this post. If I were to try and write a fic like this, with Sam with DID, should I ask the author of the above fic for permission?

Keep reading before you answer (it would also help you to read the fic too, as otherwise this might not make a lot of sense).

I know the author doesn't own the idea, if that were all it was I wouldn't even bother thinking about asking. See, my problem is that the author does a lot of things right in the fic and if I wrote one there's a real chance that to someone who doesn't click the Wiki links I would put in the author's notes it would look like I had basically ripped off this girl's fic. Some of you know this, some don't--it all depends on how long you've had me friended--but my stepdad has DID. The fic I write would be heavily influenced by my own personal knowledge of him and his personalities and how they work.

One of CJ's--my stepdad's--main personalities is Brick. Brick is the main protector personality; he's tough, he kicks ass, he scares the other altars and doesn't talk much. Among the other alters are: a teenage girl, a Casanova, a math genius, an artist (several actually, each with a completely different style of drawing) and a little boy. The thing about the alters is that you can tell who is there if you know what to look for; the body is held very differently by each one; they have different handwriting; different names and memories; different ages and tastes, and different ways/manners of speaking.

If you've read the fic then you probably see my problem.

The personalities aren't identical to the ones in her fic, the girl is less bitchy and more shy from being locked away by the others, the Casanova is actually kinda like Dean, thinks he's smooth as hell and has an ego the size of Canadia-land, the math genius is endlessly patient and doesn't mind not coming out very often, etc, etc. But the very bases are the same and to the untrained eye my fic could possibly look like an unofficial remix.

So, what do you guys think? Should I, say, point the author here and ask her if she minded or should I just write it?

[Poll #1120142]

ETA: Sooper sekrit option 3 has just been done, I have just edited my comment to her to inform her that she has inspired my to write a DID!Sam fic that does not take place in her universe but may seem similar at times.

So apparently I'm spending the day in a car driving up to Payson and back with Mom and CJ. I'll have my phone but it'll stop working (like it works now) about an hour out because they don't have Cricket (my service provider) up there.

Also? Yay, pissed off CJ by having the damned audacity to watch this on TV this morning. How dare I watch something with people he doesn't like on it.

This is gonna be a completely shit day for me today. Hey, maybe I'll get some writing done in the car.

So. I have no financial aid. It's not horrible though because Mom and CJ are gonna pay for me (I hope they realize it's gonna be that way next semester too) because it's only about a thousand bucks total (taken out in five increments). Which is good, and they'll pay for my books too if I can get them cheap.

Yuss still doesn't have a job and my lack of financial aid now disqualifies me from doing work study there too. My schedule, as shown here, means that I won't even be home until Between two and five in the afternoon (depending on the day) so if I got a job it would have to be somewhere between sixish and whatever time still lets me get home early enough to wake at like, six in the morning.

I usually have a good, nice chunk of money left after financial aide for clothes or whatever is needed but now I don't. I have two pairs of pants and one has a big hole on the inside thigh. I've been waiting like, a month for Mom to take me to Wal-Mart and get me one pair of $20 pants but I don't think that's gonna happen any time soon.

Then there's the twenty bucks a month for a bus card to get to and from school. I'm gonna be spending four hours a day on the bus and John the iPod and Sam the laptop (forgot I'm still on crutches, nevermind the laptop) will be saving me from early morning drunks and the asshole high schoolers on it. I love you, Julia!

I'm trying not to stress about WinCon. It's just that it's in less than three months and I have $0 out of $325 needed for it. I just filled out an application for this place where Phil works (Not Dell, Singular) even though I have no idea what their hours are like. I'm not confident at all that I'll be able to do the job even part time but it's worth trying. Yuss needs to get a job, for serious. I know it's not his fault because he applies constantly, it's just that he can't get anyone to hire him. It still pisses me off (but not at him though). Man, if I had my brace fixed I could totally be a car-hop at Sonic. Kinda hard to rollarblade on crutches though.

I'd rather not have to sell my brother over the net to get to WinCon but I think I may have to resort to that.