Random Tweener and capitol punishment.

[clex_monkie89]

Okay so I was watching his vid right, Mad World by... The chick I was just talking to a moment ago. Hang on. Bahg. My internet is slow right now so just go look here at pb_vids and find it. Anyway, I'm watching the vid and it's awesome and groovy and sad and it has Tweener in it. And I noticed two things.

1) He's really pretty when he cries. Really. And I want to hug him. A lot. Nn. Babbeh.

2) Tweener came into prison sagging his pants half off his ass. Sagging? Started in prisons. It was a way to tell your cellie you were "ready" for him. Poor Tweener, he so drain bamaged. *Smooches her dorky white dork*

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Oh right, almost forgot too. Today? I saw a bunch of people die. I don't mean like watching Law & Order, I mean I watched actually people die on film. I watched two people be executed by firing squad, one person get his head chopped off by a guillotine (It was from a distance but you could see the body roll off the... table thing), three people get hung, stills of people in an electric chair, and bits of someone being out to death by lethal injection.

This was for and in class by the way. When we get to chapter fifteen we're gonna watch someone be killed by lethal injection. And we heard a lot about the gas chamber and how it's pretty much watching someone choke to death for fifteen minutes.

I am so very against the death penalty right now. And the electric chair? Is fucking scary and there are people who have had to be electrocuted more than once because the first time didn't kill them. People's head's have caught fire and others have bled out of the mouth, eyes, ears, nose and such.
Also? It's not uncommon for someone who has been electrocuted to lose fingers or toes because of it. The electricity builds up and has nowhere else to go and either fries the nerves or completely destroys the fingers/toes.

I just felt the need to share these with you. And the fact that now I'm having horror images of Linc in the chair and him not dieing and just... *Shudder*

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See, I'm usually not all that bad with stills of dead people, the bodies at Auschiwitz and autopsy photos and stuff like that. It's... when it's moving images and you're actually watching them die... Buh.

Yeah, that's... yeah, awful. I don't know if I'd be able to watch that. I really have a thing about death, watching people die (as I'm sure many people do), even if it's a fictional movie and I know it's not real. Like the PB ep where LJ finds his mom dead? Really disturbed me. My concentration in college was Holocaust and Genocide Studies, so I've watched and read tons on genocidal stuff and I'm mostly okay with it all, but sometimes I'd watch something that would randomly really upset me. Watched a TERRIBLE made-for-tv movie in a class once about a concentration camp starring David Arquette of all people, but there was a scene during which a group of people is trapped in a gas chamber and it's like 5 minutes of them screaming and dying and I had to leave the room 'cause I couldn't watch it anymore.

When I was in my old dorms I watched some guy outside my window get his head blown off.

That's also pretty awful. And scary. When I was younger I lived in a pretty badish neighborhood and every so often would hear gunshots outside, but never saw something like that. One of those things that it's probably better that you can't remember it. The weirdish thing is that I live in a pretty nice, quiet neighborhood (for NYC), so I don't know if this guy was shot, hit by a car, hit by something/someone else, collapsed for some other reason. Very strange not to know what happened to him.

I forgot you wrote that. You bastard. I still get all twicthed out about that, oy.

Eek, sorry I brought it up :) If it makes you feel better, I get twitched out by it to (which almost never happens when I write something) - even more so after reading this post.

[mooyoo.livejournal.com]

ack, why was I signed out? Boo.

[clex_monkie89.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's... yeah, awful. I don't know if I'd be able to watch that. I really have a thing about death, watching people die (as I'm sure many people do), even if it's a fictional movie and I know it's not real. Like the PB ep where LJ finds his mom dead? Really disturbed me. My concentration in college was Holocaust and Genocide Studies, so I've watched and read tons on genocidal stuff and I'm mostly okay with it all, but sometimes I'd watch something that would randomly really upset me. Watched a TERRIBLE made-for-tv movie in a class once about a concentration camp starring David Arquette of all people, but there was a scene during which a group of people is trapped in a gas chamber and it's like 5 minutes of them screaming and dying and I had to leave the room 'cause I couldn't watch it anymore.

See, LJ finding his Mom was not horrible for me because I had watched her on Nip/Tuck like the night after so I knew she was still doing all cool. Once though? I put on "Cute Poison" before going to sleep. In all my madness to avoid spoilage I never found out about Lincoln's nightmare. Holy crap man that was... No.

And? You have some weeknesses with death and you chose to oncentrate on Holocaust and Genocide Studies? Buh?

That's also pretty awful. And scary. When I was younger I lived in a pretty badish neighborhood and every so often would hear gunshots outside, but never saw something like that. One of those things that it's probably better that you can't remember it. The weirdish thing is that I live in a pretty nice, quiet neighborhood (for NYC), so I don't know if this guy was shot, hit by a car, hit by something/someone else, collapsed for some other reason. Very strange not to know what happened to him.

See, it funny because I've had weird... "luck" like that my whole life. Me and my parents drove right in front of Dahmer's apartment builing like days/weeks before he got arrested. Mom says the smell was horrific and that they had thought that a sewer main was busted or something, I don't remember much cause I was all baby-sized.

Eek, sorry I brought it up :) If it makes you feel better, I get twitched out by it to (which almost never happens when I write something) - even more so after reading this post.

And you should be sorry! :) Sounds like that fic to you is what Anatomy is to me, just something completely... out of the blue and buggy.

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Yeah, that's... yeah, awful. I don't know if I'd be able to watch that. I really have a thing about death, watching people die (as I'm sure many people do), even if it's a fictional movie and I know it's not real. Like the PB ep where LJ finds his mom dead? Really disturbed me. My concentration in college was Holocaust and Genocide Studies, so I've watched and read tons on genocidal stuff and I'm mostly okay with it all, but sometimes I'd watch something that would randomly really upset me. Watched a TERRIBLE made-for-tv movie in a class once about a concentration camp starring David Arquette of all people, but there was a scene during which a group of people is trapped in a gas chamber and it's like 5 minutes of them screaming and dying and I had to leave the room 'cause I couldn't watch it anymore.

See, LJ finding his Mom was not horrible for me because I had watched her on Nip/Tuck like the night after so I knew she was still doing all cool. Once though? I put on "Cute Poison" before going to sleep. In all my madness to avoid spoilage I never found out about Lincoln's nightmare. Holy crap man that was... No.

And? You have some weeknesses with death and you chose to oncentrate on Holocaust and Genocide Studies? Buh?

That's also pretty awful. And scary. When I was younger I lived in a pretty badish neighborhood and every so often would hear gunshots outside, but never saw something like that. One of those things that it's probably better that you can't remember it. The weirdish thing is that I live in a pretty nice, quiet neighborhood (for NYC), so I don't know if this guy was shot, hit by a car, hit by something/someone else, collapsed for some other reason. Very strange not to know what happened to him.

See, it funny because I've had weird... "luck" like that my whole life. Me and my parents drove right in front of Dahmer's apartment builing like days/weeks before he got arrested. Mom says the smell was horrific and that they had thought that a sewer main was busted or something, I don't remember much cause I was all baby-sized.

Eek, sorry I brought it up :) If it makes you feel better, I get twitched out by it to (which almost never happens when I write something) - even more so after reading this post.

And you should be sorry! :) Sounds like that fic to you is what Anatomy is to me, just something completely... out of the blue and buggy.

[mooyoo.livejournal.com]

See, LJ finding his Mom was not horrible for me because I had watched her on Nip/Tuck like the night after so I knew she was still doing all cool.

Haha. And I didn't even like her much, either! Generally I'm not too terrible with stuff like that, if I get freaked out by someone dying in a movie or something I always tell myself it's not real, and I'm usually okay. But sometimes...yeah. Like in that scene I was just totally shocked by it, really was not expecting them to be killed. Like, at all. And my mind immediately jumped to (even though he's a fictional character) "Oh my god, that's just a completely horrifying thing for a kid to see" and was a little disturbed. Once I had to watch "The Day After" in a film class (another made for TV movie, this one on the days after a nuclear war), and I think part of the issue was that it was like 3 weeks after 9/11 and I was completely on edge already. But there's like a 5-10 minute long scene of the bombs being dropped and people being evicerated and the over the course of the movie nearly every character dies horribly of radiation poisoning and it's just scary and yucky and I was, what, 18? when I saw it, but had nightmares for like a week. I'm a total wuss with some stuff like this.

In all my madness to avoid spoilage I never found out about Lincoln's nightmare. Holy crap man that was... No.

Ouch, and right before bed too. Did you think he was going to bite it, or was it just his flipping out? I remember watching that for the first time and going "well this can't be real...he's one of the stars, he can't die! This can't be real...but...what's going on? It's not really real, is it...?" And I figured it'd be a dream or something but his freak out was hard to watch.

And? You have some weeknesses with death and you chose to oncentrate on Holocaust and Genocide Studies? Buh?

Heh, that's what a lot of people say. Was on a job interview yesterday and when I told that to the interviewee he looked at me like I was insane. I think initially I got interested in it because of family history stuff and during college took a lot of classes on it (my school has the only Holocaust & Genocide Studies dept in the country, so I thought I'd take advantage of it :P), and just find it really interesting. Totally depressing, but for the most part I could step out of it and not get too bogged down in sad stuff. Though every so often (like literally every few months or so) I'd have a random period of depression and have a good long cry at some random thing I'd read and then I'd be okay again for a while. I also tend to focus a lot on genocide awareness and resistance/rescue, try to look as much as possible at hopeful stories more than tragic ones. But seriously, the psychology of the people in the department is so bizarre, like how people handle a subject like this and study it long-term.

Mom says the smell was horrific and that they had thought that a sewer main was busted or something, I don't remember much cause I was all baby-sized.

WOAH. That's crazy. And totally creepy. When I was youngish there was a big fire in my building that started in the apt below ours while I was playing hide and seek with a friend. And I distinctly remember feeling really warm and smelling something burning and thinking that my mom was burning something she was cooking. And later I was all "OH!" But dude, Dahmer - yeah. Woah. Heh, weird luck. Probably better, again, that you don't really remember it.

[clex_monkie89.livejournal.com]

And my mind immediately jumped to (even though he's a fictional character) "Oh my god, that's just a completely horrifying thing for a kid to see" and was a little disturbed.

Oh I know! Poor baby! LJ needs a hug or sixty-three.

Ouch, and right before bed too. Did you think he was going to bite it, or was it just his flipping out? I remember watching that for the first time and going "well this can't be real...he's one of the stars, he can't die! This can't be real...but...what's going on? It's not really real, is it...?" And I figured it'd be a dream or something but his freak out was hard to watch.

I knew he wasn't gonna bite it because my FList wasn't completely ridden with Spoiler-Cuts and sad/angry/dissapointed mood-icons like it was right before and after the Lost Deaths but still... Holy fuck man that was... gut-wrenching. Horribly so.

Heh, that's what a lot of people say.

And I don't blame them for it. But at the same time I see where you're coming from, my major is also... Unusualy for someone like me and I get the... curiosity and the need to know. And I get the whole Phases thing too, I go for spans of time where one thing in particular just squicks m hard while another that squicked me before... not so much now.

WOAH. That's crazy. And totally creepy. When I was youngish there was a big fire in my building that started in the apt below ours while I was playing hide and seek with a friend. And I distinctly remember feeling really warm and smelling something burning and thinking that my mom was burning something she was cooking. And later I was all "OH!" But dude, Dahmer - yeah. Woah. Heh, weird luck. Probably better, again, that you don't really remember it.

Dude. Damn.

[mooyoo.livejournal.com]

Holy fuck man that was... gut-wrenching. Horribly so.

Word. Especially (hit me for some reason) when he keeps yelling for Bellick to help him. No idea why, but I guess just in general that big tough guy Linc is screaming for help is trippy. I mean you gotta figure that he's not going to die (and good point about your flist, heh)

And I don't blame them for it.

Haha. I was talking to a guy once and mentioned that it was my concentration and he looked at me very seriously and said "Do you sleep at night?" And it took me a few minutes to get what he was saying. I don't know, I just find it an interesting subject (for lack of a better phrase), how something so terrible can happen on such a large scale, what lead up the Holocaust and all of the different conditions that had to come together to allow for such massive insanity and destruction, and how people reacted to it and continue to react to it (I majored in film, so the Holocaust in films and movies was another big theme that I studied). And how genocidal events over the past 20 years have been carried out and how they're percieved by the rest of the world is something that interests me.