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clex_monkie89 ([personal profile] clex_monkie89) wrote2010-07-13 11:25 am

Why do I fucking do this to myself?

I know better than to go there, but I did anyway and I know I am dumb enough to go back and look.

I kind of hate people a lot sometimes? But not everyone.

P.S. I'm not bisexual, I'm asexual-bisexual (because I don't like the term biromantic); which means, basically, that I like guys just fine, and girls too, just so long as they're with each other and not me. I have said in the past that I was bisexual. I've also said I was pansexual and straight at points either, because I didn't know asexuality existed and I didn't know how to describe myself.

And, yes, my porn is not particularly good, I know this and actually take no offense to anyone saying it. But it's not bad because I "hate the gays" or anything, it's because sex is not appealing to me, and my brain immediately wants to shift more to the emotional aspect of it, which is not always what fandom wants.

This was supposed to be a two-line entry. I think I'm gonna go get food and nap until my luinch break is over.

[identity profile] crimsonkitty88.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Please take this in the good way it was meant in and not the creepy way but I love your porn.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh please, you know you mean it in the creepy way.

:P
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[personal profile] lonetread 2010-07-13 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
just so long as they're with each other and not me

That's fabulous. *steals for later*

Also, you're awesome and I hope you know that.

(Also also, you spelled "fandom" wrong in your tag, jsyk.)

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
Late response is LATE.

You are so insanely awesome there aren't words to describe it.

Thanks, iWin at typing, I swear.

[identity profile] brieza.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Between your surgery and this post, are you sure you are not me? Are you familiar with AVEN: www.asexuality.org/ ?

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
I think I might be you. Also, I have never heard of AVEN before, but I think I might be in love with it now, judging from the website.

[identity profile] veronamay.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Asexual here also. It's so good to know that you have the freedom to describe yourself any damn way you choose and not be judged for it, isn't it? OH WAIT.

And yeah, I can guess how frustrated you are, but having lurked over there from time to time I reckon you should take everything that's said with a pound of salt, not just a pinch.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
It's really just ridiculous to get judged in part because you just don't know how to describe what you are.

I'm always pleasantly surprised by how many asexual people there are in fandom. It's so easy to feel like you're the only one, that sometimes you forget that you are never alone on the internet.

[identity profile] veronamay.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
Come visit Sherlock fandom, there's a ton of us over there. ;)

[identity profile] wutendeskind.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
*sigh* It's so hard to resist going there when you know it exists.

*hugs*

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
*Hugs back*

[identity profile] missyjack.livejournal.com 2010-07-13 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Next time you feel the urge to go there, go and reread lovely comments on your fic. You created a wonderful story and that means you win ;D

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
It's some sort of weird, masochistic streak or something. I know better, but I click anyway.

[identity profile] cherie-morte.livejournal.com 2010-07-14 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
*sigh* I know how you feel right now, babe. I can't tell you not to listen or let it get to you, because it would be hypocritical, but I can tell you objectively when it's not me they're talking about that they're wrong and just being hurtful for the sake of it. *hug*

[identity profile] scorpiod1.livejournal.com 2010-07-14 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs muchly* I hate that place sfm, they're all a bunch of whiny fuckers. I'm sorry, bb, but like Cherie said, they're just being mean for the sake of it. I know your fic is fabulous <33333333333333

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
ILU SCORP.
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[personal profile] amalthia 2010-07-14 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
hugs and for the record I love your porn...um I'm also not sure I can resist the urge to go there once my story is posted, though I know for peace of mind it's probably best to avoid.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
Aw, thanks! ♥

I think that's the worst thing about that place; once you know you can't seem to make yourself to the smart thing and ignore it.
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[personal profile] velithya 2010-07-15 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
be strong BB. *hugs*

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2010-09-14 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
*Hugs back*

Ha, now guess what post this was a comment to!
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[personal profile] velithya 2010-09-14 09:48 am (UTC)(link)
I don't need to guess, I have comment replies and everything ;P *HUGS MORE*