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clex_monkie89 ([personal profile] clex_monkie89) wrote2006-06-15 03:02 am

Fucking PMS. Fucking emo. Fucking insomnia. FUCK.

Oh my God. See fic like this is what I miss about Smallville fandom. I have literally spent almost the entire day reading this and I am happy for it.

"Texas: It's like a constant blowjob here. The kind with teeth and more drooling than suction." --Elissa (First part) and I (Second part).

I seem to have caught the emo. Ugh. I think I'm PMSing. I need steak and I want to read happy!fic and I have new holes in my arms from scratching at them. No tears yet so no full-fledged panic attacks but I've come pretty fucking close. Also two weeks ago Ma said we could go to Wally World. Originally we were gonna go and get sticky-tabs to put up the posters I took down for no reason but now we have to get food too. For the past... Week or so Mom's been saying that we'll go food shopping "tomorrow." I'm thinking I'm gonna be eating ramen for a few more days.

I've been approved for Financial Aid. This is good. I can't sign up for classes yet. This is bad. Last fall I rented a calculator from the college and forgot to take it back so I have to do that tomorrow. Yes, Last fall, sometime in September, I borrowed a calculator from the college and I still have it. When I procrastinate I turn it into an art form.

Also I missed my OT5 tonight because Julia crashed out early and the internet fucking hates me. Seriously, the amount of times I get knocked off and the frequency is unfuckingreal.

There are nine episodes left to chart on The Laundry List. [livejournal.com profile] angstslashhope totally offered to host the list on Super Canon and that's just really fucking cool.

My Bookmarks are a fucking MESS and I think I'm about to fix them now. Also I need to DL the latest Mozilla because I fucked the one I have now and it keeps going all shitty on me. How do I know I did something? Cause I haven't heard Yussie bitch about it yet so I'm pretty sure it's only happening on my side.

My insomnia is why I am a member of 231 comms. Because at night when no one is updating I start roaming around and join random comms I think look kinda interesting or have a few posts I might like.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:12 am (UTC)(link)
Randomly? Have you finally seen the season's finale yet?

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:18 am (UTC)(link)
Not yet, but I'm narrowing in on the disc it's on though; I just found a whole new stack of old discs. I'm tellin' ya, I'm actually gonna label WTF is on the discs from now on...

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:22 am (UTC)(link)
Hissssss!

Did ya know that halfshell is totally jonesing for some happy! childhood fic? That's what she requested for pbfx because she says she can't write it herself and you and mooyoo haven't really written anything lately.

But yeah, one thing that amused me about pbfx is how Michael and Lincoln hopelessly are the most angsty pairing ever. The angst factor usually greatly outnumbering the porn factor ;D

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
Wanna hear funny? I've been trying to think up a good, happy PB bunny in my head for a few days now anf it's... Not easy. I can see how the PBFE went so angsty; nearly all my bunnies resulted in me going "Oh. Poor Michael!"

...I'm thinking maybe Michael and Linc playing games throughout the years? Video games, card games, D&D (Linc would just want to beat things and would get bored when it wasn't his turn), more video games, maybe bloody knuckles and some other stupid games here and there. Hm. Might kinda be able to do this maybe if I think hard enough.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:45 am (UTC)(link)
This gen one is relatively nice. Sure, still rather wistful, but what exactly on Prison Break is not wistful to at least some extent?

How about something like "Times that Lincoln was fucking proud of Michael" (or Michael was fucking proud of Lincoln?).

I thought your little "Michael and Lincoln play in the rain" drablet was very happy.

How about something like "5 things Michael and Lincoln finally got to experience again after they broke out of prison"? Or some cracky far in the future fic where both have a truckload of kids. Or how about Lincoln playing with LJ? Or fluffy Michael/Sucre? Somebody should totally write a fic where Sucre and Maricruz get married on the run. Or Sucre, Michael and Lincoln in a van together kidnapping Maricruz on the street for her own good since Sucre can't call her.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:21 am (UTC)(link)
Hmm. I like the Proud ones. And I'm a huge fan of the kidnapped!Maricruz (As you may know :P) so that sounds groovy too.

I think I might try the Proud ones if only because they would say SO much about the boys. Linc would be proud of Michael mouthing off to an authority figure, Michael would be proud of the D+ paper Linc brings home in English that one time...

Okay yeah, Proud fic it is.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:30 am (UTC)(link)
Actually the whole proud idea came from your very own fic, Soundtracks. Because that oe line stuck to my mind the most.

Make sure it doesn't get too wistful! You know Lincoln being proud that Michael graduates when it means that they will probably grow apart because Michael is all growed up now.

Linc would be proud of Michael mouthing off to an authority figure, Michael would be proud of the D+ paper Linc brings home in English that one time...

Wheeee, I love it :)

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
Actually the whole proud idea came from your very own fic, Soundtracks. Because that oe line stuck to my mind the most.

The Violent Femmes one, right? I'm actually kinda proud of that fic myself (Ha!) and love how much you love it.

Make sure it doesn't get too wistful! You know Lincoln being proud that Michael graduates when it means that they will probably grow apart because Michael is all growed up now.

See, I think that Lincoln would actually be kinda happy for that. He doesn't want to grow apart from Michael but he would love it if Michael got that "normal" life Lincoln thinks he deserves so much.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
I'm actually kinda proud of that fic myself (Ha!) and love how much you love it.

Yeah, I just it. I remember your first fic, Defense/Defenseless, which was nice, but kind of normal. And then you dropped Sountrack and I knew I was in love. ;D

He doesn't want to grow apart from Michael but he would love it if Michael got that "normal" life Lincoln thinks he deserves so much.

Yeah, he would. But I think to us, the reader, it would still feel kind of sad and witful. Because Michael and Lincoln are just naturally a bit angsty and wistful.

Wonder if Michael making it out of prison would be one of the things Lincoln is proud of. And of course the first time Michael drank something alcoholic (or the first time Michael managed to hold his liquor; Or you know, riding his bike the first time without the support wheels. )

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I just it. I remember your first fic, Defense/Defenseless, which was nice, but kind of normal. And then you dropped Sountrack and I knew I was in love. ;D

I really don't like that first fic but I know why I don't like it. It wasn't in my style and it was easy to tell. It read like it was forced. Soundtrack and The Difference and the others? Those are my style and while I still don't exactly like them completely I feel a little more comfortable with them. I managed to find the right groove to work in.

And of course the first time Michael drank something alcoholic (or the first time Michael managed to hold his liquor [...]

I'm thinking the first time he finished a full bottle of beer and then the first time Michael made it through a hangover without trying to sock Lincoln. Along with every single test and grade Michael ever got back all the way from the A's in math to the F's in gym.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
I really don't like that first fic but I know why I don't like it. It wasn't in my style and it was easy to tell. It read like it was forced.

It's a nice enough fic. But it's...normal. Kind of obvious. Anybody could have written it. While everything else is just so much more you and it shows. Maybe people feel that and react to it, if you wrote something that was more you rather than something that was more what people would normally expect.

I'm thinking the first time he finished a full bottle of beer and then the first time Michael made it through a hangover without trying to sock Lincoln. Along with every single test and grade Michael ever got back all the way from the A's in math to the F's in gym.

Oh, me love!

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
While everything else is just so much more you and it shows.

I think you're right. Elissa and Julia always say how they love my style because it's so different and so much like how I think and I think that works for me better. Defense was me trying to write a fic and trying to write it the way everyone else did, and that just doesn't work for me.

[identity profile] mooyoo.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 04:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Or some cracky far in the future fic where both have a truckload of kids.

Three words: Prison Break Mpreg.

I have a random, silly post-escape fic a little over half-done that I've been sitting on for a while. It was originally started for clex (way back when it was still relatively close to her birthday), so I'm going to try to finish that up, 'cause this lack of finished stuff is just getting ridiculous.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Three words: Prison Break Mpreg.

I still want that T-Bag/Abruzzi mpreg. Just for kicks!

I'm going to try to finish that up, 'cause this lack of finished stuff is just getting ridiculous.

Seems that alazysod managed to kick her muse back into working by sending some of her unfinished stuff to clex for evaluation. Don't know what magic it did, but alazysod went into a totally awesome posting/writing frenzy!

I think I'm gonna do a post at plotbunnies where I challenge people to post bunny ideas for happy!fic.

[identity profile] mooyoo.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I still want that T-Bag/Abruzzi mpreg. Just for kicks!

If I had any confidence in my ability to get that done in a timely fashion, I'd say I'll try it, but really who knows when it would get finished. Plus, I've never written T-Bag (although if there's any time to start writing a character, it's cracky mpreg!)

Don't know what magic it did, but alazysod went into a totally awesome posting/writing frenzy!

Yes! Totally jealous. It seems like a lot of people have gone into a writing slump at about the same time. I'm glad she's broken out of hers. I've been thinking about posting all my unifinished fic, but some of them are longish, and I have no idea when any of them might be finished and I don't like dropping pieces of a story without being able to finish it up.

I think I'm gonna do a post at plotbunnies where I challenge people to post bunny ideas for happy!fic.

Awesome. You really really should. Especially since I'm just about out of happy ideas, and have absolutely no happy pre-series ideas at this point.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad she's broken out of hers. I've been thinking about posting all my unifinished fic, but some of them are longish, and I have no idea when any of them might be finished and I don't like dropping pieces of a story without being able to finish it up.

You could send some of them to halfshell, I think she can be pretty authorative with those kind of things, so maybe she could whip you into shape ;D

Especially since I'm just about out of happy ideas, and have absolutely no happy pre-series ideas at this point.

Well, let's take it over there. After all, you could always just offer yourself up for "Well, everybody, hit me with your happy bunnies." :D

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:52 am (UTC)(link)
Also? D&D Michael and Lincoln would be so awesome.

Also? If Michael is gamemastering means that he has to play all the NPC characters right? And Lincoln would constantly want to chat girls up in the game and Michael would have to play the female flirting part and Lincoln would totally make him blush all the time.

"You are at a bar."
"I hit on the barmaid."
"There are no barmaids."
"There are always barmaids."
"*Fine* The barmaid comes over."
"Is she hot?"
"No, she weight 300 pounds and has a hairy mole on her nose."
"But she has big boobs, right?"
"I'm never letting you play again!"

"Does she let me reach under her skirt."
"No, she's a warrior princess aristocrat!"
"But he get to pet her knee. Just a little bit, like that, right?"
*demonstrates*

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
"But she has big boobs, right?"
"I'm never letting you play again!"


Too perfect! Linc would totally try and get drunk and have sex all the time and Michael would just sit there and glare and blush and fidget.

I love it!

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
"I take her behind the barn."
"No!"
"d20 Make a willsave!"
Sweat pearls form on Michael's brow.
"Haha, I won, I take her behind the barn. And I'm slowly taking off her chainmail and slide my arm over her chest like that..."
"She's a priestress of the firegod. You can't do that. Besides, you are a dwarf."
"Well, make another willsave, dumbass. Besides, I put on my size spell."
"Well just as you try to feel her up you are interrupted by..."
"Bullshit, I just use my potion of invisibility on both of us."
"Well, fails."
"Does not!"
"Does too!"
"Does not!"
"Does too!"
"Well, I'm conjuring the guy who sold it to me and start beating his ass."
"Dickwad. *mumbles and plots that Lincoln will be hit by a "pants on" curse the next time he touches a magical item."

And the whole time Veronica would be sitting there, playing with her hair and rolling her eyes while Michael and Lincoln argue.
_____

And now I'm trying to fight down the urge for a "Michael takes part in a play at school and Lincoln helps him rehearse" bunny. Because let's face it, on the "lame but kinda cute" scale this is decided closer to the "lame" than to the "cute" edge.

Especially since my first thought was that Michael would never sign up for acting in a play, instead he would do all the technical behind the stage stuff, like build props and do the whole raising and descending stuff on ropes things.

But you know that came to my mind? Have you ever seen Little Women? There is this scene where I think Winona Ryder's beau takes her to the opera and promises her great seats and instead of them having front row seats he knows some of the behind the scenes guys/builders and so they instead sit up there in the rigging and look down on the stage. And during the important parts of the opera he takes her hand and explains to her what is going on.

And now have that mental image of Michael and Lincoln sitting up there and Michael whisperingly explaining how the role roping and suspending and the special effects work and then of course what the play is about. And my mind Michael is either all cute and shy about it or all excited and hyperactive and Lincoln thinks that he's adorable.

Eeeee, go away sappy Michael/Lincoln bunny.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
And the whole time Veronica would be sitting there, playing with her hair and rolling her eyes while Michael and Lincoln argue.

Of course! They're on the floor with the cardboard "map" they made and their action figures bitching and she's laying on the couch/bed watching TV and making random comments about how it's the closest either of them are ever gonna get to a real girl.

Eeeee, go away sappy Michael/Lincoln bunny.

No! It's so cute! Take it to the bunny palace and beg someone to take it cause I totally need to see it now. Badly.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
No it's embarassing and sappy. I'll have to think of at least a dozen other bunnies just to hide this one properly.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:54 am (UTC)(link)
Do we need to have another confessional? Hm? Cause if so you could easy theme this one "Sugary, fluffy, sap" and probably get tons of bunnies people don't know what to do with.

[identity profile] thelana.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
Oh a general post for sugary, fluffy bunnies, hmmm, that does have potential.

*must ponder*

[identity profile] hrada.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
*BIG SQUISHIES!*

I'm sorry you're going through this crap, babe. Oh my fuggin gosh does a magical fairy need to come down and heal your leg so you can get a good job and get out of the house for a little while and make some money so you don't have to deal with this bullcrap. Oy. :(

What's this whole OT5 thingie?

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:30 am (UTC)(link)
*BIG SQUISHES YOU BACK*

I need money badly. And Grandma's getting on my case about not having a job. I love her but she doesn't seem to get that whole "Standing sucks for me" thing. -_-()

And OT5 is me and four other friends from PB fandom (Amanda/[livejournal.com profile] miss_mandy, Julia/[livejournal.com profile] jewels667, Elissa/[livejournal.com profile] lissa_bear, and Cheesey/[livejournal.com profile] ferrynheit) who tend to all hop online every night and have a Group Chat in MSN. We ramble about all kinds of random things and I usually end up making random icons for them or writing random ficlets to bribe them to stay online.

Basically they're like you but female, straight and less prudeish. :P

[identity profile] hrada.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:53 am (UTC)(link)
I am so not a prude!

Okay, maybe I am a little, but IT'S GOOD FOR YOU!!! Plus, I balance things out a little. :P

Maybe you could try a desk job?

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:30 am (UTC)(link)
PRUDE! PRUDEY McPRUDESALOT!

And okay yeah, maybe we do kinda balance right.

The problem with desk jobs is the fact that lots (Read: Most) of them require experience and proof beyond your word that you can do 45wpm and know 10-key. All of my references are the four months I worked for 600 at Job Corps; I can't even list all the work-based I did there because there's no proof of it outside of Mr. Bunch's class.
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[identity profile] fiddleyoumust.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 02:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry you caught the emo. Emo is totally like a disease and it's highly contagious. You should have stayed away from me.

Sorry I crashed out early! I had a really good time at dinner with my family and drank entirely too much wine. So... sleep happened. I still <3 you though.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 02:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Fuck the Bird Flu, why don't we have an Emo Vaccination yet?

You are such a dirty little drunk. You... drunk. Yeah, my brain is less than firing on all cylinders right now. I love you too though! <3
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[identity profile] fiddleyoumust.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 02:25 pm (UTC)(link)
:D Your brain needs sleep and you never give it any! You are the wakiest person I know. And yes, wakiest is totally a word.

*waves watch on chain in front of your face*

You are getting sleepy. You are getting sleepy.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I would totally love to be able to sleep. Sadly I am a massive freak who totally has a brain that works against her body. So uncool.

[identity profile] dancinguniverse.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh my God, I stayed up until 3 am reading that Smallville fic. Shalott owns my soul. I agree, it's things like that that make me miss the fandom, but I couldn't handle the episodes anymore. So I just read Shalott and Punk's fanfic and content myself with that.

And then, of course, I had to order season 3 of SV from Netflix, and watch every single Superman Returns trailer I could find. Craziness.

[identity profile] clex_monkie89.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I agree, it's things like that that make me miss the fandom, but I couldn't handle the episodes anymore.

The episodes just became completely ridiculous. I own season 1, saw all of season 2 (Except for like, two eps) and a few eps of season three; I just couldn't handle any more. I am, however, stalking the Superman Returns trailer like a junkie looking for the next fix.

I've found that by completely ignoring a large chunk of the show and just reading fic everything works out much better.

[identity profile] dancinguniverse.livejournal.com 2006-06-15 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
It does indeed work out better this way.