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[Fic] Five Things They Are Not
Title: Five Things They Are Not
Status: Done
Rating: PG-13
Fandom(s): Prison Break
Characters: Sara, Veronica, Lisa, VP Reynolds, Mama Scofield
Disclaimer: Not Mine.
Summary: Five Things They Are Not
Spoilers for: 0108 -- The Old Head and 0116 -- Brother's Keeper.
An Addict.
She doesn't need the morphine, her body doesn't cramp and scream and burn for it. She doesn't pick at her skin or sweat or get nauseas if she doesn't have it. She's never traded sex for it and she's never gone out and tried to buy any on a street corner. If she had a car she wouldn't sell it for more morphine...
She likes helping people, she really does, but the morphine makes it easier.
It makes it easier to remember the small boy with more purple skin than white and how high the blood from that one girl's throat jumped. She is not addicted to it, she could stop if she wanted to, she just doesn't think she'll ever be ready to remember someone dying with her arms inside their chest while sober.
A Criminal Lawyer.
She went to law school, she chose her specialty and she got her degree. She had a nice job with a good firm, a nice apartment, a nice fiancée and a good life going for her. She's great at real estate law but she's complete shit at criminal law and she knows this.
She doesn't know what she's doing and she's trying and learning as she goes but it's hard, harder than it looks on TV and in movies. The basics are still the same; hearsay, Rules of Evidence, witness and such, but it's the little things that matter.
It's dealing with cops who rely on half legible notes for a case from three years ago and people willing to kill to get their way.
It's knowing that if she fucks this up, a man she's loved in one way or another all her life will die a painful death and another she loves just the same will kill himself slowly. It's knowing that the fifteen-year-old sleeping in the chair in the living room will be an orphan and may even suffer his father's fate if she can't beat the people who have probably put millions of dollars and thousands of hours into this conspiracy.
She's not a criminal lawyer, but she's getting better at faking it.
A Bad Mother.
She was sixteen when she had him.
She didn't listen to her mother and give him up and she didn't drop out of school and she didn't let Lincoln see him, but none of those make her a bad mother. She didn't do drugs much after him but she did drink a little around him.
Those things don't make her a bad mother either.
She hated him while she was pregnant and she didn't like him much for a few months after, but the fact that the dislike scared her, the fact that she told someone about it, means she is not a bad mother.
When her mother got fed-up and threw them out, she swallowed her pride and crawled back to Lincoln for the sake of her son. And when Linc started getting high again she took her son and went to a shelter, despite the blow it was to her pride.
She screamed a lot, but she never hit him. She let him watch "R" rated movies, but she always asked about them. She taught him about drugs, sex, drinking, stealing, and lying, and she took him to get his permit, but still made him ride his bike.
She knows what the neighbors think when they hear the fighting, she knows what the teachers think when they see the grades and what the other kids think when they hear his name, she knows what the police think and the PTA and her own mother, but to the very second she dies she knows that if LJ survives it means she's not a bad--
A Bad Person.
She loves her brother with all of her heart. She would kill for him and die for him and die so he might live. Ever since they were children they've been there for each other.
She argued them into the same classes and passed his tests for him and paid for his tests when she couldn't do them on her own. She was popular and made him popular by association.
She got him his first date and bought him his first wife and sent them on their honeymoon with a big plastic smile on her face. And when that bitch tried to take him for his company she had her disposed of. Tragic car accident, drunk driver hit her car and killed her instantly, an obvious need for stricter DUI laws.
She bought him his second wife too and she bought his wife, Katherine or Kathleen or something like that, two new dashing young men to keep her busy.
And when Terrence got in over his head with that overgrown laundry-mat of his she did what she had to do to make it better.
Gone.
She can still see them from up where she is.
She's seen all the good things they've done and all the not-so-good ones too. She's seen all the times her eldest has lept before he looked and every time her baby has lept in after and pulled him out. She's seen all the times they've triumphed and persevered and she's seen those times, thankfully few and far between, when there was just too much against them.
She sees them hurt and crying and in pain and takes comfort in the fact that they have each other. She is never disappointed with either of them, she doesn't think that's possible here, but to her own surprise she still feels a muted uneasiness when her children embrace and join and forget the world around them.
She sends them gifts sometimes; a watch stuck at 11:11, church bells that ring off schedule, a whisper in the dark, an old song not heard in years, little things.
She knows they think about her and she knows they hurt but she thinks they know she's in a better place.
As long as they remember her and as long as they think about her she is not gone.
Status: Done
Rating: PG-13
Fandom(s): Prison Break
Characters: Sara, Veronica, Lisa, VP Reynolds, Mama Scofield
Disclaimer: Not Mine.
Summary: Five Things They Are Not
Spoilers for: 0108 -- The Old Head and 0116 -- Brother's Keeper.
An Addict.
She doesn't need the morphine, her body doesn't cramp and scream and burn for it. She doesn't pick at her skin or sweat or get nauseas if she doesn't have it. She's never traded sex for it and she's never gone out and tried to buy any on a street corner. If she had a car she wouldn't sell it for more morphine...
She likes helping people, she really does, but the morphine makes it easier.
It makes it easier to remember the small boy with more purple skin than white and how high the blood from that one girl's throat jumped. She is not addicted to it, she could stop if she wanted to, she just doesn't think she'll ever be ready to remember someone dying with her arms inside their chest while sober.
A Criminal Lawyer.
She went to law school, she chose her specialty and she got her degree. She had a nice job with a good firm, a nice apartment, a nice fiancée and a good life going for her. She's great at real estate law but she's complete shit at criminal law and she knows this.
She doesn't know what she's doing and she's trying and learning as she goes but it's hard, harder than it looks on TV and in movies. The basics are still the same; hearsay, Rules of Evidence, witness and such, but it's the little things that matter.
It's dealing with cops who rely on half legible notes for a case from three years ago and people willing to kill to get their way.
It's knowing that if she fucks this up, a man she's loved in one way or another all her life will die a painful death and another she loves just the same will kill himself slowly. It's knowing that the fifteen-year-old sleeping in the chair in the living room will be an orphan and may even suffer his father's fate if she can't beat the people who have probably put millions of dollars and thousands of hours into this conspiracy.
She's not a criminal lawyer, but she's getting better at faking it.
A Bad Mother.
She was sixteen when she had him.
She didn't listen to her mother and give him up and she didn't drop out of school and she didn't let Lincoln see him, but none of those make her a bad mother. She didn't do drugs much after him but she did drink a little around him.
Those things don't make her a bad mother either.
She hated him while she was pregnant and she didn't like him much for a few months after, but the fact that the dislike scared her, the fact that she told someone about it, means she is not a bad mother.
When her mother got fed-up and threw them out, she swallowed her pride and crawled back to Lincoln for the sake of her son. And when Linc started getting high again she took her son and went to a shelter, despite the blow it was to her pride.
She screamed a lot, but she never hit him. She let him watch "R" rated movies, but she always asked about them. She taught him about drugs, sex, drinking, stealing, and lying, and she took him to get his permit, but still made him ride his bike.
She knows what the neighbors think when they hear the fighting, she knows what the teachers think when they see the grades and what the other kids think when they hear his name, she knows what the police think and the PTA and her own mother, but to the very second she dies she knows that if LJ survives it means she's not a bad--
A Bad Person.
She loves her brother with all of her heart. She would kill for him and die for him and die so he might live. Ever since they were children they've been there for each other.
She argued them into the same classes and passed his tests for him and paid for his tests when she couldn't do them on her own. She was popular and made him popular by association.
She got him his first date and bought him his first wife and sent them on their honeymoon with a big plastic smile on her face. And when that bitch tried to take him for his company she had her disposed of. Tragic car accident, drunk driver hit her car and killed her instantly, an obvious need for stricter DUI laws.
She bought him his second wife too and she bought his wife, Katherine or Kathleen or something like that, two new dashing young men to keep her busy.
And when Terrence got in over his head with that overgrown laundry-mat of his she did what she had to do to make it better.
Gone.
She can still see them from up where she is.
She's seen all the good things they've done and all the not-so-good ones too. She's seen all the times her eldest has lept before he looked and every time her baby has lept in after and pulled him out. She's seen all the times they've triumphed and persevered and she's seen those times, thankfully few and far between, when there was just too much against them.
She sees them hurt and crying and in pain and takes comfort in the fact that they have each other. She is never disappointed with either of them, she doesn't think that's possible here, but to her own surprise she still feels a muted uneasiness when her children embrace and join and forget the world around them.
She sends them gifts sometimes; a watch stuck at 11:11, church bells that ring off schedule, a whisper in the dark, an old song not heard in years, little things.
She knows they think about her and she knows they hurt but she thinks they know she's in a better place.
As long as they remember her and as long as they think about her she is not gone.
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You sure it ain't "lying"?
But I loved this lots and lots. Really, can't say anything, just loved it. The women of Prison Break rock.
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See that's what I thought but my spellcheck wouldn't recognize it as a word. Fixing it now.
But I loved this lots and lots. Really, can't say anything, just loved it. The women of Prison Break rock.
Yay! I'm glad you liked it; tis one was bugging me a bit.
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Get a new spellcheck. Lying after all works for tell a lie and for to lie down.
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Really liked She's not a criminal lawyer, but she's getting better at faking it
and
She's seen all the times her eldest has lept before he looked and every time her baby has lept in after and pulled him out.
Liked Gone a lot in general. Post-death Mom POV has definitely not been done yet, and I liked it a lot.
Yeah, just loved this insanely.
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Thank you! I tried really hard with Sara's (and all of them) because I wanted to get it right so badly. I don't think the drugs were a rebellion tjhing for her, I think that she underestimated how hard it would be not to be able to save someone.
Really liked ["]She's not a criminal lawyer, but she's getting better at faking it["]
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["]She's seen all the times her eldest has lept before he looked and every time her baby has lept in after and pulled him out.["]
Thank you again! The first one is my favorite line because I got it on the first try and it managed to capture the Veronica in my head perfectly. The second one was a bit harder if only because I wanted to change the wording after like three runs through the spellchecker and now "correct" spelling of "lept."
Liked Gone a lot in general. Post-death Mom POV has definitely not been done yet, and I liked it a lot.
I'm actually very proud of this one. It just... came out on it's own. I didn't really have to give this one much thought at all because it came out pretty much exactly like this on the first run.
Yeah, just loved this insanely.
Thank you so much!
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As much as I don't like Sara and Veronica(because Sarah isn't given enough to do and Veronica needs to be written better) on the show, I liked them here.
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I've determined that I like Sara when she's drugged up and not around Michael (Or not on the show) and I like Veronica when everyone points out how stupid she is and all the things she does wrong.
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Junkie!Sara was hot. I liked her without Michael coloring her every waking thought.
Well, then you must love her as a character.
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And? I actually do like Veronica a lot because she fucks up constantly and it's pointed out often.
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Hmm. Actually, I think you've got something there. They always try and point out her flaws vs. perfection being shoved down our throats in almost every other damned media.
Veronica rules!!!!1111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!!
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And? Veronica is incredibly flawed and the writers make sure we know this. That makes me happy.
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I think you get the picture.
Veronica's and LJ's mother are my favorite. Veronica because despite how boring she actually is on the show, I am determined to like her and believe that she is useful. And LJ's mother because she was on the show for like a seoncd, and then she was gone, but her story had to be interesting and you made her so real, I loved it all!
Fantastic. =)
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dieing
That should be dying.
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That should be dying.
Dammage. Thanks, I'll fix that right now.
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Very nice!
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You killed me with that last one. My son just brought home another less than stellar report card even though he said he tried harder than ever.
He felt bad, doubted himself, and it broke my heart to see that!. I do my all to show him otherwise of course but its all so crushing for me just the same.
Mothers and Sons!!
I can't get enough Ma Scofield!!
Thank you.. THANK YOU!! Nice work ;D
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I'm very happy that you liked this and thank you for the review!
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I loved the denial in Sara's-- and that you could also see some of what drove her to the morphine. I loved the jumble of Veronica's life, and that she tries, flails, can't give up because it means too much even though there is virtually no chance of winning.
The Lisa one... God. So many flaws, and she knows it, but she has her eyes on the single most important thing, and maybe with her background and their lives, that's all she can really give her son.
I love, LOVE what you did with the backstory of the VP and her brother. The carrying him along, blending him in, buying him wives and then buying their compliance. This created so much fabric out of that 45-second canon scene. Truly brilliant.
And the Mama Scofield one was so very sad. This part, especially, was heartbreaking:
She sends them gifts sometimes; a watch stuck at 11:11, church bells that ring off schedule, a whisper in the dark, an old song not heard in years, little things.
I adore that-- the ways she tries to reach them, the only ways she can really, and yet they are hints that could so easily be missed. It's like her love is itself a ghost, haunting, never accomplishing, not always heard. There's a feeling of futility there.
This.Was.Fabulous. Truly. :)
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Thank you, you really have no idea how much that means to me. I really wanted to do the women justice and I can say with complete and utter confidence that I feel this is my canon. I will hold onto it kicking and screaming because... Because I will. I'm not even sure how to explain why without sounding egotistical but I feel that these women are strong and deserve good backstories.
I loved the denial in Sara's-- and that you could also see some of what drove her to the morphine.
Addicts never believe they're addicted; they all can stop when they want, no one wants to stop, the high is always worth the low, balh, blah, blah. I can honestly see her doing it one after talking to someone who does it and then realizing that when she's high nothing feels bad.
I loved the jumble of Veronica's life, and that she tries, flails, can't give up because it means too much even though there is virtually no chance of winning.
See this is why I've always liked Veronica; it's acknowledged that she fucks things up and isn't the brightest monkey in the bin but she still keeps trying. She knows that this is worse than David and Goliath because David had a chance but it doesn't stop her from trying. She's at huge risk and she's lost a lot of her life to this but she keeps trying and cannot be detered.
that's all she can really give her son.
And she knows this. She knows that she's fucked up in the past but she knows that if LJ makes it out alive then everything she's ever done is worth it.
I love, LOVE what you did with the backstory of the VP and her brother. The carrying him along, blending him in, buying him wives and then buying their compliance. This created so much fabric out of that 45-second canon scene. Truly brilliant.
Thank you! I just... I firmly believe that she's been saving him in some form or another all her life. I think that they were close growing up because the parents weren't. I really had no clue how much of a backstory I had for them until I started writing though. It's amazing because we really did have just a tiny snip of it really.
I adore that-- the ways she tries to reach them, the only ways she can really, and yet they are hints that could so easily be missed. It's like her love is itself a ghost, haunting, never accomplishing, not always heard. There's a feeling of futility there.
I think that's the ultimate tragedy; she tries as hard as she can and all she can do is just... little specks. These itty bitty things that you can't really see unless you're looking for them. And the saddest part is that I think that the boys, or at least Michael, have given up looking.
This.Was.Fabulous. Truly. :)
Thank you! Thank you so much!
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her eldest has lept before he looked and every time her baby has lept in after and pulled him out.
that line epitimozes the brothers relationship perfectly!
ok, back to your ficlist! :D
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