clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (WRITING SHOULD BE EASIER)
Time for a Big Bang Email Chain! Click the link to go add your email and beg on!
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Geekboy - Sammy)
[livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang has finished posting! I did not post this year (my second miss EVER), because RL.

There were 133 fics posted, which is batshit, and the wordcounts are as follows:

2,783,576 J2 words
249,600 Other RPF words
1,289,414 Sam/Dean words
943,476 Other SPN words

For a glorious and insane total of 5,266,066 words written and posted for this year.

We are some wordy fuckers.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Writing: I Should Be Doing It)
Writing Meme stolen from [livejournal.com profile] cherie_morte and everyone else on my FList today.

Pick a fic of mine and a question and I'll tell you:

1. What part was most difficult?
2. What are you most proud of?
3. What's a reference you made no one has picked up on yet?
4. What's a bit that sums up your take on a character?
5. Favorite line(s) of dialogue?
6. Favorite lines(s) of prose?
7. Were there any points where you were trying to do something specific with sound, vocabulary, or rhythm?
8. How many drafts did the work go through?
9. Were you listening to anything while writing the fic? If so, what?
10. Imagery that is important to the fic, either while composing or in the fic itself?
11. What were you most worried about during the composition?
12. How do you want readers to react to this fic?
13. What did you want them to take away from it?
14. What inspired this fic?
15. If you used a beta, what did you agree or disagree on?
16. Did anything surprise you during the writing?
17. Were any parts written under the influence? Useless question for me


My fics masterlist is here.

There may be a real update eventually.

Depression

May. 30th, 2013 12:07 am
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (My "People Skills" Are "Rusty")
It's fun, right?

I'm pretty much bipolar. It isn't diagnosed because the job I work at that I hate doesn't give me insurance. I was gonna go to Ma's GP on Tuesday to see about getting on some kind of medication, but didn't go because a combination of not having the money and CJ wanting to talk to me about it first. Which I get, because Ma sometimes gets an idea in her head and gets her Stubborn on, and I know he just wants to make sure that I'm not agreeing to go if I'm good but just hating my job.

And, let me tell you, the amount of hate I have for this job is eclipsed only by the amount of hate I have for the asshole who is my temporary boss. Mine doesn't come back until the beginning of July, and I really don't know if I hope I'm still there then or not.

Ranting about work be under this cut. )

I added a ridiculous amount of words to my Big Bang on May 1st (almost a full 13k) and then have hardly touched it since. I feel so bad for poor [livejournal.com profile] colls, because she has 7k of coherent fic and then nothing. I try, but this entire month has been about 90% downswing and the other 10% so busy I cannot do a thing. And when I'm on a downswing I either just am too numb to care and don't even bother to try to open it, or everything is SO fucking horrible and stupid that I just want to delete it all and start from scratch. Which would be a very bad idea.

In addition to all that, one... Saturday? Friday? My old desktop broke, I moved to one we bought off a guy that was password protected in the core like work computers tend to be, so I couldn't install my work system on it. Then I moved to Ma's new desktop, which would not allow me to the login page for work, and then to Yussie's which is now mine. And then two days later my old work computer completely broke. About an hour after my laptop gave out.

Now, when I say my laptop gave out, what I really mean is it did that thing it would do occasionally where it spends about two hours trying to fix an issue it finds, and says in big, BOLD letters across the screen ATTEMPTING TO REPAIR DISC. DO NOT POWER OFF OR UNPLUG.

So, naturally, Ma turned it off. And it ruined the harddrive to the point where Yussie tried to reinstall Windows on it and it told him to go fuck himself. Now, on the plus side, I had known my desktop was giving out, so I backed it up on my server constantly. I have all my comics, fonts, PS presets, pictures, music, etc. The TV and movies I downloaded are gone, but I have 3.80TCreds on TVT and a ratio of 4.73 on IPT with 3,559 bonus points, so I'm not exactly worried about getting those back, besides just plain remembering what I want.

But my awesome husband [livejournal.com profile] unperfectwolf has been working on her Squee! submission for the last two hours and unwittingly helping me feel better by talking about finding fandom when she was in single digits and [livejournal.com profile] wincon. I genuinely am feeling a little better now, so I'm going to end this novel of a post before that turns again.

I might be super slow to respond to comments, because procrastination is awesome when I downswing.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (PIE GUYS! PIE!)


ALSO. JFC, SUPERNATURAL. HOW YOU GONNA GUT ME LIKE THAT, YO?
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Sam Is Fucking Exhausted)
I was lucky enough to get grabbed by the amazing [livejournal.com profile] colls even though I have the most generic summary on the planet that I, once again, came up with right before hitting send.

A (Pinch of) Salt And Batter-y

Dean's been running the family business for all of ten minutes and he's already fucked it up so bad that Sam had to practically drop out of school to come save him. And if that's not enough, the pretentious douchebag who manages the health food store across the street won't stop hitting on Sam, and Dean is this close to physically lighting their new rival shop's owner on fire.

Or, "Sam and Dean run a bakery instead of hunting demons, Crowley opens the new cupcake shop down the street, and if Lucifer (who used to be a boring dude named Nick when he went to school with Dean) tries to hit on Sam one more time Dean is going to get arrested for murder."

THAT'S RIGHT. I WROTE A BAKERY AU FOR BIG BANG, AND THEN SOMEHOW DID NOT MENTION IN THE SUMMARY THAT I WROTE A BAKERY AU. Thankfully, I think I made [livejournal.com profile] colls pee herself with joy, so yay!

We post August 15th (101 days from now), because it's like [livejournal.com profile] wendy knows me or something.

In non-fannish news, I walked through for almost five hours today, spent 16 hours somewhat coherent and awake yesterday, am dyeing my hair, Ma's hair, and my aunt who is visiting for a month's hair tomorrow.

Also, I literally facemashed through about 13k of my Big Bang on the first, like usual, and now have to detangle it and make it coherent for my artist because, no, really, at one point I managed ten words to say that Dean was yelling.

P.S. You guys. I loooooooooooooooooove Show. I really do. Pac-Man Fever made me all fluttery all over!

Tumblr still won't let me reblog and I hate it there so I'm mostly okay with that.

I have been working Tech Support for exactly a year as of an hour 39 15 minutes from now, and I still hate it so much that I cry on a pretty much daily basis. Fun times.

I am two episodes behind Hannibal (which I am in LOVE with), STILL eight episodes behind Dexter, four behind The Voice, four behind Doctor Who, at least five behind Scandal, three behind on Glee (I hope I can quit this! I hate Glee so much and can't stop watching), one behind on Psych, and I don't even know how far behind I am on Happy Endings.

I wrote no fic in March because of a death in the family, and none in April probably in part from trying to mentally/emotionally recover from March and April (because no seriously April, WTF). I'm going to try three this month to make up for it. Feel free to laugh. (But, also, feel free to leave ideas for wee little ficlets. I have an entire window devoted to comment meme prompts I might attempt to attempt.)

OH. And I might be getting an iPhone 4? IDK if I want one, but our phones are due for upgrade, and Yussie's refuses to charge anymore, which has resulted in a lively game of "Switch me batteries" when he goes to work, comes home, and then is home for a few hours. And the iPhone 4 is a free upgrade at Verizon ($30 upgrade fee, what the actual fuck) so either he's gonna upgrade, or I will and then I'll give him my current phone (we all have HTC Thunderbolts right now).

I was going to say something else here. OH, RIGHT. Yussie broke his hand. Luckily, it happened at work, so his boss is paying for everything, and he's on light-duty so he doesn't have to miss time. He got it pinned between between a fitting and the truck while loading it at work, and then his boss said "Nah, just looks dislocated. Let me pop it in for you."

And now he's in a cast to hopefully avoid surgery and them having to screw things through his hand.

It's 11pm and I am SO. FUCKING. EXHAUSTED. I'm going to go grab my laptop to charge my phone and sleep. But not before spending five minutes making a new icon that fits this.

JFC, I did not know I had this much to say.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Writing: Big Bang 2013)
Third call for the Big Bang Email Chain! I don't have to have you friended for you to want in on this, otherwise I'd lock it.

In related news, I have 1,637 words and Dean is already fucking my story sideways.

RL things happened at the end of March, and so I didn't get a fic done for that, but am hoping against hope to get 2 done this month and posted, or I'll owe 3 in May.

Speaking of this week, I am genuinely scared of and for Boston right now, and my thoughts are with everyone there and everyone who has friends and/or family there.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (SRS BZNIS - J2)
HI THAR. LONG TIME NO SPEAK. Here's what you missed: I got new glasses! And lost 17.6 pounds since February 13th of last year. Technically, I lost way more than that at one point, but then had a really bad downswing, mood-wise in October and it decided to stay until basically January. But I'm starting new again! I'm marking down all my food I eat and making a conscious effort not to eat when I'm bored or not actually hungry. I am super looking forward to being able to buy clothes without crying. I think I did that once. It was nice.

I work for a satellite company now! And have since May! (JFC, really? It's been that log?) I am tech support, and if you want to see me rant about how much I hate people you can follow me on Twitter, because I fucking hate people. There is a reason I.T. people are always angry and annoyed in TV/movies. IT'S BECAUSE OF PEOPLE WHO CALL ME FOR HELP, AND THEN TELL ME I'M WRONG. BITCH, WHICH ONE OF US GETS PAID TO DO THIS SHIT AND WHICH ONE ADMITTED DEFEAT AND CALLED FOR HELP?

Also, Supernatural is back, and has been for a while, and I still LOVE IT. I know this is an unpopular opinion, but it's mine and I want to dress it in frilly clothes and make it have sex with it's brother. Or something. )

While we're talking about me not posting shit ever: how the fuck did I only write two fics last year? )

BUT! That brings me to my next point! I'm aiming for at least one posted fic every month this year. One done, so far! I might even have two this month, possibly.

Also, [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang! I signed up for it again, and I have a fic idea already (that will hopefully stick), and an awesome title possibly, and I might actually attempt to write the worst summary possible this year, because that's what I get when I try to write a good one, so if I aim specifically for bad I might stumble into perfection. There will be a Flocked post about this after this one, because, duh.

In addition to living on Twitter, I also live on Tumblr now, despite fucking HATING it. And then I had a rant about Teen Wolf, which I like for some reason. )

ALSO! THERE WAS [livejournal.com profile] wincon! WIIIIIIIIINCOOOOOOOOOON! IT WAS AWESOME, AND I LOVED IT, AND I AM NOW ONE OF THE CO-CHAIRS OF PROGRAMMING! GO SUBMIT A PANEL, YOU GUYS! This year we're in VEGAS and it's going to be so fucking amazing I don't even know where to start. Actually, it's so fucking awesome that I will make a separate flailing post about it later.

Also, in my absence I have done ALL THE ART EVER. It was not easy, and the Mona Lisa was cranky. I have become [livejournal.com profile] unavoidedcrisis's Dedicated Pinch-Hitter for her eleventy-five Big Bangs she runs, and have four arts I'm doing for [livejournal.com profile] apocalypsebang alone. I'm very excited, and also very worried, because, obviously. Ugh, I am stressing myself out just thinking about it right now, even though there's no reason to. On the plus side, each of the arts and the steps in the process are gonna average out to another level or two in GetYeDone. What, you ask, is GetYeDone? I AM SO HAPPY TO TELL YOU!



This site is basically the best thing ever. It's a To Do List site that lets you level up and earn EXP, which, man, is fucking awesome if you're as competitive as I am. The site itself is still brand new, and the party system is still under development, but you guys should all go join, add me over there, and then comment here with your name so I can add back when the parties go live. I'm Clex the Indecisive over there, shockingly.

In case anyone was wondering, I spent the entire Superbowl writing this, am counting it as a Boss Fight because I have put this off for literally an entire month, and am happy that the Ravens won.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Jess Likes To Roleplay)
I know, I know. No one probably cares, and this is likely less thank shocking to anyone, but here's mine:

True, We've Demolished a Thing or Two (Sam/Dean/Jess)

Sam/Dean/Jess and the variations therein. R to NC-17, depending on edits.
4. Your story summary for artists: The idea is simple: Save People. Hunt Things. Sam never imagined it would be so hard to find something to hunt, but the area around Stanford seems to be a dead zone. Dean never thought it would be so hard to save people, but they all keep saving themselves. Jess never dreamed she'd find the perfect guy who would understand her job as a Hunter, but here she is bonding with two of them.

Now if they can just keep from killing each other, it might just be true love.


[livejournal.com profile] ordinaryink saved me in round two from having to draw wee, crappy little stick figures for my art.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Sam Thinks You're ADORABLE)
I TURNED MINE IN LAST NIGHT!

THIS IS THE VERY FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER FINISHED BY BIG BANG DRAFT BEFORE THE ABSOLUTE LAST MOMENT!

AND I HAVE A JOB! I START TRAINING ON MONDAY! WHICH IS WHEN ART CLAIMS GO UP FOR [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang!

I SHOULD PROBABLY SLEEP NOW.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (MOG YAY! - SAMMY!)
It's my biiiiiiiiiiirthday!

I'm possibly celebrating it by going to see Bully, but that depends on if Ma's Celiac's is still drop-kicking her.

Also, I have lost 24.2 pounds since the middle of February, when I started trying!

And I have a job! I start training May 7th, I'm going to be customer service/tech support for DirecTV, and I get to work from home!

And I've passed 13k on my Big Bang! And signed up for [livejournal.com profile] wincestielbang because I'm crazy.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (WRITING SHOULD BE EASIER)
I have, like, twenty-something "ideas" for Big Bang.

I use quotations marks there, because they are basically "Hey, what if ___?" and then no idea how a plot would work out.

And then I have one idea that I liked, except the idea is a premise, not a plot, and IDK how to do 20k of it without the fic being just Sam at Stanford, and the premise slotted in there, weirdly. (In which case it then becomes a Stanford fic, and looks a lot like an immediately prequel to Postcards).

Seriously. Like, the only possible "idea" I have that has a pre-determined beginning, middle, and end is the Big Bang I was gonna do a few years ago that is 18k with the worst pacing fucking EVER. The fic is supposed to span a few months and then at 18k I realized that ABOUT A WEEK HAD PASSED IN FIC-TIME.

If anyone happens to have ideas for 20k+ fics, especially ones that are SPN or J2, I would welcome them in the comments. This is a hint.
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (OCD FTW)

  • Move my desk (Where it is now).

  • Organize my makeup, Post-Its, pens, notebooks, and notepads.

  • Outline my Big Bang ideas.

  • Put on makeup (aka: stop wallowing and feeling crappy).

  • Make my update for [livejournal.com profile] winconshapesup (go join, if you want!).

  • Badger Ma and CJ about the LA Fitness on the corner.

  • Figure out some kind of work-out routine I can do at home until I have enough money for the gym.

  • Make a post to Makeup Is Hard (the blog I am starting to help me be less dumb about makeup).

clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Team Free Will OT3)


Come and join [livejournal.com profile] polybigbang, a multifandom threesomes or moresome big bang!

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Sign Ups: Author | Artist | Beta
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Writing: I Should Be Doing It)
I sign up for too many things. )
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (WRITING SHOULD BE EASIER)
So, I yanked the shitty ending off my Big Bang and now I have no idea what the fuck to do next.

I need one or two people who have the time to read through it and help me brainstorm. I don't need a betas for spelling or grammar or anything, I already have one. I just need a fresh set of eyes to say "Sandy should call more" or "I think X should happen next" or "You should add Y."

It's S1 Non-AU J2, if that matters.

Any takers?
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Writing: I Should Be Doing It)
Tell the truth.

[Poll #1726071]
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (Writing: I Should Be Doing It)
Tell the truth.

[Poll #1726071]
clex_monkie89: Close-cropped picture of Sam and Dean Winchester sitting far closer than normal people. (KRIPKE WRITES WINCEST)
...I suck at journaling, man. I'll blame Twitter, even though I kinda suck at that, too. So, non-bullet bulleties.

- [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang! I signed up! Sadly, my first idea for it is something that I recently realized will get maybe three people will read it, because fandom as a whole seems to loathe the theme. I know you shouldn't write specifically for comments, but there is something distressing about spending months and months writing 20k+ and getting only four comments on it. Also, I am tired of being one of the last picks for art. It's stressful.

- Since my last real update B has put in his plea, officially been sentenced and moved back to Florence. This is good, because Florence is a one hour drive where Tucson was three, and it's a two hour visit through glass where Tucson was a half an hour over camera. Also, last night Kristin (his other sister) stopped by to pick up some of his stuff because when they moved him from county in Tucson back to Florence he couldn't bring anything but his court paperwork with him. It was cool, me, her, and Ma got to talk for about two hours before she had to go. We're gonna get together on Sunday before she drives back up to Pinon.

- Google is awesome, but their beta phases are apparently crap with people. Seriously, I have a brand new respect for all the buggy shit in GMail when it first started and everything. They're trying Lead Qualifiers--people who will answer the calls when they come in and get their name, number, website, what their budget is, and then direct them to the right people on the right team. In one minute. They literally have a handle time of sixty seconds, which means if they take longer than that to do anything, they're breaking their version of a quota. The past two weeks have been pretty crap because of this and all the systems that haave been breaking because of it.

- I am still in love with Southland, and it is back and everything about it is made of love.

- In related and more shameful news, I have been randomly watching S10 of Smallville here and there and kinda falling back in love with it. I CAN'T HELP IT. LOIS AND CLARK! THAT IS MY LOIS AND CLARK FROM COMICS! Except for where SV has torn apart the canon and made their own, but when I think of it as an Elseworlds it hurts me less. Also, holy shit, Ollie, you are weridly in love with Clark, man. I am not used to it, but until you get a Hal of your very own (or a Dinah that doesn't make my eyes twitch as hard) I guess I do not mind. I ALMOST FORGOT. Daniel Jackson, you may be doomed to be an archaeologist forever but you were perfect as Hawkman, and I cheered like hell when you tossed Green Arrow through the window, and when you tossed him on the table, and generally when you existed and were onscreen.

- More related news, Batman/Superman: Public Enemies, the movie, is amazing. I quoted nearly the whole thing in Chat last week when I watched it, because Superman and Batman and their relationship was so damn perfect.

- Young Justice, on the other hand, makes me sad all over and I almost want to make an entire post just about all the ways it sucks. Also, I spent the first fifteen minutes or so going, "Koooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon" over and over until he showed.

- Speaking of Smallville, I have been rereading SV fic based in/written during seasons 1 and 2, and it has been weirdly nostalgic and awesome. On the off chance that there is anyone here still in that fandom, or who still has bookmarks from that fandom, I would not turn them down.

- This got really long. I will go now, because I need to write this weekend before [livejournal.com profile] cherie_morte kills me.

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